Wednesday, January 16, 2008 britney spears set to star as madonna in upcoming unscripted reality show slash biography. details are sketchy. some have speculated that this is just a pubilcity stunt designed to draw attention to the fact that neither need record sales anymore. others still wonder if there's not some truth to the rumour that the free madonna in the park concert will actually be britney spears as madonna as part of the finale of the first season of the yet unnamed show. a golden dawn for television no doubt. Labels: not to be believed 5:34 PM (2) comments

Wednesday, December 19, 2007 oh the unending pain of it all. i had bought the object of my affection a delicious little gift. imagine my delite when i even recieved a half kiss. then, last night, to see the gift on one of his friends, you'd think tears would have come to my eyes but no, instead i laughed out loud. the friend asked me what was funny but how could i tell him? i told him i was high and everything was funny. i told myself i got drunk as a skunk because it was the start of my weekend last night. i don't know for sure whether i believed myself. hopefully the sun, the moon and the stars are aligning themselves all proper like, i'm due for some "rip me a new hole" ass fucking. 5:53 PM (0) comments

Monday, December 17, 2007 dear diary, there's this boy i like. lately he's all i think about. i know it's wrong, i know it's not meant to be, i know he would be bad for me but still, being aware dosen't make it any less prevalent. i say to myself "today i will no longer be affected by him" but then he says that something somethin' or smiles the certain way or shows me the attention i rightly deserveand i forget to hold fast to my "today i know...". i questioned out loud to a friend yesterday "why dosen't he see me as a mark?" when i very well am and realize that i am. our first date had to be postponed by half an hour because he had to service a client. diary, you know, it was the "date" part of that statement that was wrong. what am i doing going on a date? furthermore, why am i secretly proud of the fact that our first date did not involve sex. sure, some stolen caresses while he slept and holding him while i fell asleep. almost even calling him by the name of he that i am reminded of by him. oh the morbidity of it all. 2:01 AM (0) comments

Friday, November 16, 2007 the shaved head hottie. since we first connected two weeks ago he's got me on some sort of hook. last week we run into each other and at first he ignores me. aaargh. the week before he had been telling me he loved the look he saw in my eyes (likely keen desperation) and this week he wouldn't look me in the eye. eventually i approached him and he asked me if i wanted to get plowed by his buddy. i left. wednesday he text me and asked if i was interested in getting together with him. i told him i would be available in an hour and didn't hear back from him. after more then the hour passed i expressed my disappointment in a text. there was some texting back and forth, a claim he hadn't got the first text. and nothing again. yesterday while helping a friend with their online escorting ad (apparently i have a knack for this, it's my third) i came across his escorting ad. fairly sure it's a new one but it has been awhile since i cruised for escorts. fortunately i start a new job today, pennies will be saved. 11:50 AM (1) comments

Tuesday, November 13, 2007 i like dick. oh sure, politics are a big bore but i need a 'i like dick' mug now. 6:06 PM (1) comments

Thursday, November 08, 2007 shortly after midnight the host returns. followed only seconds later by a knock at the door, 'steve' is here. steve is this beautiful tall boy man. earlier when i spoke on the phone with the host he had mentioned that it was good that big dick was leaving because he didn't think steve would be into him. i got nervous again, like when i first arrived at this party last week and thought i was walking into a porno. steve and i sat in the play room, watching porn, while the host scurried around. getting to a state of undress with steve was delicious. not to fast, not to slow and in no time at all he was fucking my ass and host was announcing "i knew you two would hit it off". tree trunk returned sometime after 1 and the four of us went at it like it was roman times. twice i enjoyed double penetration! sometime after the break of dawn a fifth joined us. delightful street thug wannabe. big fat cock. fucked mechanically fast. when i realized i had been going for over a day with little break i knew it was time to extricate myself. Labels: funk of gay sex 12:14 PM (0) comments