Sunday, May 30, 2004 off i was to the theatre this evening, a continuation of gay sex junkie out of control. though, i behaved myself all week long, perhaps i have some control. i get there and do a quick survey. of course i don't see him but do i really expect to walk in and find him. actually, a little bit yes. seems very busy to me but nothing really attracts me. i stake a spot out and relax. not really though. somehow i mark that spot with my scent cause no one seems to take it as i make quick jaunts through the place and then back. i notice a shorter hottie. he seems to be looking at me, even following me. i lead him back to my spot, a sort of darkened area, he stands next to me for what seems like half a second and then moves off. i think he's very hot and a bit out of my league so alls well that ends well. i go back to scoping for the russian. mind you, in the process i'm discovering there are few guys i'd like to compare cock size with. a couple different gropes here and there but nothing gets started. i walk into a really dark area and am disoriented as my eyes adjust. i don't move and wait. as my eyes become i aware i notice the hottie standing up against the wall, he touches my arm and i lean up against the wall next to him. he whispers into my ear 'are you a slut?'. gosh and by golly yes i am but instead of telling him i reach over and grab his crotch. seems thick, very thick and he's not hard. we rub each other cocks for a bit both growing harder. a number of guys walk by us but i think we go unnoticed for the most part. i'm always aware of the possibilty that an extra hand may jump into the program but it still startles me when it does, dosen't happen. he's gotten my dick out of my jeans but his is still very much in his pants. he asks me if anyone has sucked my cock tonight and i say no. i think this means he's going to start sucking it but he just keeps pulling it. suddenly one of the passer bys stops and takes notice. he asks me if i want to go to a booth and we do. he heads in the direction of the booth with the large bench in it but it's taken. we go into one of the smaller cubicles with a glory hole in a high traffic area. less likely to be disturbed from it. we both take our dicks out and he makes as if he wants to kiss but goes for my neck instead. i want to kiss him! i try to and he says 'just a little one'. fine. we have a couple quick pecks and i go for his dick. not as thick as it seemed in his pants but a nice cock all the same. hard and sturdy which is really what i want the most. tasty too. after sucking on him for awhile i stand up and he says 'do you want pleasure?' to which i reply 'i am having pleasure'. as i say it i think that could be taken two ways, in fact, it sounded as if i was demanding head but really i was quite content. then he asks me if i have condoms or something. something? what else is there. i do have condoms i tell him and he says maybe i'd like to get fucked. yes please. first he says he has to get me hard. he starts to take my shirt off and i finish taking it off while he takes off his. beautiful v-shaped chest with some hair. i just want to eat him. he goes down on me instead. i don't get fully hard though. i'm just thinking of getting fucked and when that happens i don't seem to get fully hard. i find it difficult to get a dick in my ass when i'm hard. he stands up and we pull each others dicks. for this i get hard. then he asks for a condom and i give him one. he positions me such so that the ledge is my rest. he slides the whole thing in on the first try, effortlessly. sometimes i like a bit of work getting it in, makes them appreciate my ass all the more. i think he appreciated my ass without the extra effort. a nice gentle fucking to start it seemed. then a build up to a forceful pounding and then back to slow and gentle. repeat. i'm wondering if he's going to be a quick cummer and then he pushes right up in me and asks if i want him to cum. i say no, he says good and back to pounding. another time he stops and says he can hold back as long as i want. i wish i could lie on my back and really get fucked. he lubricates his hand and starts jerking me off. i'm getting close. i end up taking control of my cock and shooting a load. his follows shortly after. i was wise and brought some napkins which we use to clean up a bit. smiling at each other the whole time. he tells me it was very nice. says his name is aaron and asks mine. i tell him. he says 'your my first and last for the night'. we kiss and leave the cubicle. i came, it seems, all over the inside of my jeans. makes for a sticky walk home. so the funny part of my story. he had an eastern european accent as well. 3:01 AM (0) comments

Friday, May 28, 2004 signed into blogger today and saw a headline for 'crystal blog'. was i the only one who assumed it was another gay sex blog. lol. so, in fact, all i've been able to think of is the russian who bruised my lip. the sex was amazing. just a little incident of what happened will pop into my head and i'm off on the self abuse route. i'm convinced i will run into him this weekend. working myself right up into a froth. and i say to myself, as an aside, i say 'well if he's not there many others will be'. i've decided not to pursue the guy who wants to make me a bathhouse whore. first off, i'm already a bathhouse slut, do i need to be a whore as well? second, he hasn't contacted me further. if he contacts me again it will be a different story, but i won't acitively seek him out. 6:39 PM (0) comments

Tuesday, May 25, 2004 the gentleman from sunday night who wanted to make me his bathhouse whore emailed me. a very long and detailed letter regarding his 'scene'. basically, i become his bottom bitch except there would be no sexual contact between us. he would just supply me with tops. there was also talk of 'pre-qualifying test'. he left me a phone number. i responded by telling him i was very interested. i'd love to be gangbanged but how does one arrange that? here someone else wants to do it for me. furthermore, being blindfolded during it? i've watched many a gang bang in porn, there's always a few you could leave out to make it more interesting, being blindfolded negates that whole aspect. just makes me a fuck bottom whore. gay sex rocks. he ended his email with a phone number. i mentioned my lack of phone in my return email to him though now i'm thinking i should make my way to pay phone naked and tell him i'm ready. 7:40 PM (1) comments

out of control gay sex junkie part two. right, so, after having the shower and dressing i head to the washroom. my mouth is ever so slightly a tingle. it appears that i have a blood blister. from the forceful face fucker in the shower. damn. it's not an open wound though, still i'm fearful. i decide to have a cigeratte and weigh my options out. me giving head at this point seems to be a higher risk item. getting my ass fucked without giving head seems less then likely in my current surrondings. as i'm deciding to call it a night the forceful guy from the shower appears and asks why i left. i take a look at him and repeat the question out loud, thinking it more to myself but saying aloud. looking at him at that point i had forgotten why i had left. right, he tried to fuck me without a condom. i tell him i don't know why i left and start rubbing his cock in his pants, he's hard. he says let's go to a cubicle. we get in the cubicle and he pulls out his hard cock. i pull out a condom, i'm not going to suck on it at this point, i'm just after getting my ass fucked. he says 'are you positive' and i say no. he says neither am i and i say we're still using a condom. then he asks me to do it with my mouth. i say i'd rather do it with my ass and he obliges me. a beautiful fit. we're fucking standing up, then with me leaning over a stool in the cubicle. then he motions for me to sit on the stool. i'm hesitant. my shoulders up against the wall, lower back on the stool and his dick in my ass. it seems precarious. a couple of times i though i was going to fall. was absolutely delicious. he asks me where i want him to cum. i tell him to cum inside of me. bad boy i know and in this awkward position it's going to be hard for me to grab the base of the condom. no worries, he does it expertly himself. i'm still nervous about the positioning but he pulls me up towards him very tenderly. kisses me. we adjust our clothing. did i mention all this was done with my pants on. downright crazy! he asks if i want to cum, i say i'm ok. then he asks if i'll be around. i say yes and he tells me maybe we can do it again. yes please. i'm not sure what i'm doing now. should i shower, again? should i just go home. before i finish another cigeratte he appears again and motions for me to follow him. he sticks his dick through a glory hole and i go at it, gingerly. i figure with the wall between us i can be more in control of sucking on his cock. wrong. the whole time i realize i shouldn't be doing it but can't stop. i'm a slut for the beef stick. some other guy trys to get involved and forceful dosen't approve. he comes around grabs me and takes me to another cubicle. the one we should have went to the first time. it's larger and has one of those weight lifting benches in it. he starts taking off his clothes, i ask what time it is knowing the place is going to close soon. in half an hour actually. i half consider offering to bring him back to my place. he continues undressing knowing i was thinking there wasn't enough time but he says 'half an hour is plenty of time'. sure sure. i get right naked leaving my shoes and socks on. we begin with me sitting down on his dick. him pounding me from below and me pouding down from above my ass is very happy. he lays me out on my back and lifts up my legs. i notice him flick his hand at someone peering over the wall and he says 'bye'. fuck i don't care just keep fucking me. i reach up, take off my shoes and socks and start walking on his chest while he fucks me. i punch him in the chest too. it does the trick and he fucks me even harder. i'm sure very loud at this point. he cums. we both stand up, i grab his hand and shove it at my ass. get myself off right then and there. one arm around his neck the other pulling on my dick. he's got finger(s) in my ass and he's playing with my nipples. i cum copiously. he asks where i live. i say just a block from here. he says maybe he could go again. i say i could try. then he says he has an hour drive ahead of him. we leave the booth and as soon i lose sight of him i decide i will bring him home. unfortunately, i don't find him again. it also means to me now i'm going to have to go back next weekend and scour that place for him. i swear it must be love. 4:30 PM (1) comments

Monday, May 24, 2004 out of control gay sex junkie. i check out the online prospects this evening. i message a few guys and note that there are also a couple of guys on who have chatted me up about getting together. a new guy grabs my attention. total top looking for bottoms into blindfolds, indoor/outdoor & bathhouse sex. i believe he used the word 'purveyor' of sex, likes to watch, he controls the scene i get unlimited sex. sounds hot fucking damn to me. i message him and he only has cock shots but really fucking nice cock. he messages back that he has the night free and is looking for a bathhouse whore, can i be a bathhouse whore? i inquire after condoms, he replys condoms are not a problem. then yes i can be a bathhouse whore. at this point i'm pretty much ready to go. the messages stop coming. fuck it, i'll go to the *theeahter*. i find the concept of being this guys whore very hot, pimp me out for sure. i sends him a message telling him where i'm going and he can meet me there. i get to the theatre and instantly forget about this guy. all i really know is what his cock looks like. he could have pimped me out nicely there but instead i pimped myself out. had a couple guys obviously following me. the most aggressive was a large black man, looked like he could play football without the protective gear. i was just a little bit intimadited by him so it goes to say that he was my first. we played with each others cocks a bit and then i sucked him off. took a second to catch my breath after a couple minutes and he announced he was cumming. nice, he then wanted to suck on my dick but i would have none of it. after that a very humpy muscle guy sort of knocked against me, i thought it was an accident but after i moved away he walked past me and brushed my hand gently as he headed into a dark area. naturally i followed. a beautiful fat cock, very tasty and i was just thinking of how i could get in my ass. a crowd has formed and i'm getting recklessly groped, he must be as well but i'm not interested and i head out. thinking to myself shortly after 'i've sucked off the hottest guy here now what?'. next was a nervous boy early to mid-twenties. another biggun he was, with a goatee and some sort of sports jersey on. we sort of bounced around each other not quite finding the right place to connect casually. finally we ended up walking towards each other face to face in front of a cubicle. i step in, he follows. we go for each others cock and do the ritual rub. i quickly open up my pants and from the glory hole a hand starts grabbing me. i step away from the hand and 5 (the number on his jersey) pushes it back out. he sucks on my cock and pushes his finger up against my asshole. i suck his, and swap and swap. he asks if i'm close, i quietly say no and think perhaps he's going to stop. it's not often i go to the theatre and get fucked. i had sort of planned it this time, having done my homework. i go back to sucking on his cock and further releasing it from the constraints of his clothing. he had stuck it through his underwear and jeans which may not necessarly be conducive to getting my ass fucked. upon completion i pulled out a condom, when i did he made a very audible moan. snatched the condom from me and in what appeared to be no time had himself sheathed and sitting on the small ledge in the cubicle. i lubricated and sat myself down. now not only was someone watching from the glory hole but i saw heads looking down from up top. some tastygood fucking and i could have came right then and there, i pulled him out and tried to change positions. wanted to use the ledge as a rest for my forehead while he pummeled me. unfortunately in the process he pulled off the condom and told me he was going to cum. again with the are you close? why, indeed, yes, yes i was however now i think i'll just fake it with you and move on to the next guy. except now i'm all lubey. sex at the theatre is usually just oral, anal is rare, likely for this reason. however i notice at the counter they have towels. they've always had a shower facility there, i'd just never availed myself of it. mind you, i don't think i ever noticed towels before. get a locker and start undressing. a handsome gentleman says 'you can take showers here?' to me. i reply 'i guess i'm going to find out' and head in. it's a fair sized room, with three shower heads. it seems like i'm waiting a bit for the hot water and i sense that someone else has followed me in. the water warms up, i enter the spray and turn around to see that 2 guys have followed me in. the one who asked about the shower and another attractive older gentleman, muscle beef. i clean myself up and in the process both of these guys have pulled out their dicks and started pulling on them. i take extra time cleaning my hole, it's show business right? i towel off, never taking my eyes off their cocks. the one who asked me about the shower has a bigger dick and it's obviously rock hard, i pick it to suck on first. tasty. he grabs me by the back of the head and shoves it all the way in. gag reflex, it was there but he shoved right on past it, which is just what i need. i felt like a bitch in a porno, two fully clothed guys and me bare ass naked spitting up on the one guy's cock while the other one watches and pulls, waiting perhaps. the face fucking gets to be too much so i pull back and go for the other guy's dick. nice but definetly not as big and he allows me to suck it at my own pace. oops all of a sudden the other guy is poking his dick at my hole. practically entering which shoots me up and out of the shower room. in fact out into a bit of a crowd of guys cruising around and me in only a towel. horny. i decide to put some clothes back on and empty my pockets of anything i don't be needing. duncan needs a bit of rest from the keyboard. 5:03 AM (0) comments

Saturday, May 22, 2004 i love cum. much like my men i like it all. it certainly turns me on watching a guy cum into a condom, it's fun to play with in the condom too! really though, i prefer to have it splattered on me. those are the cumshots i remember the most. a guy pulling out of my ass and letting it rip all over me. i know it's unwise, and i don't allow it to happen as a general rule but i really like feeling a guy come inside me, with the condom on of course. i usually get a bit freaky when it does happen, reaching around and grabbing the condom to make sure it doesn't slip off. not really of the moment but hey he did get to cum while fucking my ass. nothing pleases me more as well then the site of spent condoms piling up in my little trash bin, say at the bathhouse. and as i've said many times, i love watching the bareback videos and dreaming. ah to take load after load up my ass. sweet. 8:28 PM (1) comments

Friday, May 21, 2004 went to the bathhouse after work last night. unusual for me, 9 times out of 10 i'm spent after work. sort of stayed even keel at work all night though, half expecting to go out. got to the tubs and there was acitivity. i found the time to smoke a joint and a cigeratte before the first guy. he was short, 5'6 or 5'7 and cute as a button. pocket fag. same size dick as me which of course seems bigger on his frame. he got on his knees and before he put my dick in his mouth he asked if i had poppers. normally i like a little finesse of the poppers but i was getting excited thinking of this little guy fucking me. getting fucked by a small guy seems so illict to me. anyway, i had a new bottle of poppers and opened them up, had a little sniff and then passed them to him. really i need to keep poppers for the ass fucking portion of the activities. i didn't really manage to get fully hard while he was sucking on my cock. i was sitting up so i reached down for his cock, he stood up and let me suck on it for a minute and then went back to sucking my dick. he slowed down, stopped and reached for his towel. 'ah well' i thought 'you shouldn't have done poppers right away'. he asked what my name was and i lied. i'm thinking your getting up to leave why do you need to know my name? went down for a shower. came back for another cigeratte and was sitting up for it. then i thought 'hey why is my foot wet'. in fact that wasn't exactly how the thought process was. first it was my left foot is wet, why not the other. then i thought must have spilt lube but then i realized we didn't use lube. i looked down and found his cumshot. which made the asking for my name a little more understandable. had to shower again just to clean my foot. next up was a geek. i'd even go so far as to say a wildgeek. skinny, pale, hairy, with glasses on and some crazy tattoos. really out of place tattoos hence i give him the honor of being a wildgeek. a large uncut dick to boot. he started sucking me off in pretty much the same way as the other guy except i was rock hard for this number. the thought went through my head as i watched him suck my cock and jerk his own that he better not cum like the other guy. he did. quickly too. come back from the shower and i'm thinking i've got 2 guys off, now it's my turn. a tall not unattractive blonde comes to the door and asks what i'm into. you want to know what i'm into get in here and find out i think. he does come in and shut the door. then asks if i'm a bottom. then wants to know if i'm looking to get fucked. a bottom not looking to get fucked? i guess it happens. then he asks if i'm clean and indeed i am. all of a sudden off comes the towel and his marvellous cock is revealed. just a little more then average length, nice girth and uncut, i grab it and put it in my mouth enjoying the fact that he's already hard. i suck on it for awhile and he asks if i rim. i say no, at this point i'm ready to get fucked and so then he asks 'how do i want to do this?'. i say i'd like to sit on it and he obliges. tells me while i'm sitting down he usually cums quickly the first time but can cum a second and third time. it clicks that i've played with him before and in the very room that we're in. i remember that he's not lying about what he just said. i make sure not to touch my dick during the first fuck. fucks me a bit on my back but complains about slipping. slipping? whiny tops. takes me from behind and cums. pulls out and cums, and cums into the condom. hot. pulls the condom off, slaps me on my ass and says he'll be right back. returns and asks if i'm into threesomes. i hesitate. he says honestly. i say i can be and he says honest or into threesomes? why can't it be both i say. honestly though, i don't know what his friend looks like so i don't want to say i'm into threesomes and then say no when his friend is not my idea of compatible. is he a top or a bottom bla bla bla ... he suggests we leave the door open. so it wasn't even a friend just looking for a third. not into that. he shuts the door and we start again. he asks if i can go for a long time and you know i can. for all his talk and his nice cock he's not a great fucker. once i get him up to speed he stops. pound me fucker pound me. after a while he asks if i'm sore, i'm not but i have to pee and tell him so. he waits for me in my room. i return and he's cruising from my room, which is fine i guess but he hasn't snared anything. he says he wants to see me cum. i tell him he's going to have to fuck me again. ask him if he likes poppers, which was not a finesse on my part but i mean, he's asking to see me cum. he dosen't but he also dosen't mind if i do them. always a little weird when your doing them and your partner isn't. i bounce my way to an orgasm on his cock. he starts to jerk his own dick and motions for me to lay down next to him. i think he wants to make out. i start playing a bit below his balls and towards his ass, he asks me to stick my finger in his ass. i consider myself quite good at prostate stimulation and have been told as such many a time. he comments on how smooth my skin is (wait a minute i already came no need to butter me up) and wants to know if it's natural. of course it is, mind you i don't mention anything about my skin regime. wants to know how old i am, i tell him and he says he hate me. ah those poor hairy young boys. i can feel he's getting close and he starts saying 'fuck me fuck me' and really bucking around on my finger. bottom in training. cums and announces he's spent. i say i could go another round. at the point i could have. however after the shower and a check at the time, 6am, i head home. 2:31 PM (1) comments

Wednesday, May 19, 2004 years and years ago, back before i had a home internet connection i used to use cruise the phone lines. fun. i would often go out to the bars and then hit a payphone, sometimes jumping from bar to phone to place to bar. one night i connected with someone who was also using a payphone, we set up a street corner to meet at as we weren't far from each other. before i got to the actual location a guy that was standing on the street asked me if i liked big cock. i've never known since if he was the guy i was talking to on the phone. as i do like big cock, i answered yes to him and we went to a parking lot just steps away and i started sucking on his big cock between cars. i had been drinking and at one point threw up but apparently i was quite proffesional. i turned away from him, threw up and then went directly back to sucking his cock. it was shortly after this that he asked me if i wanted to come back to his place. practically a 20 minute cab ride. we get there and he asks if i like crack and i said i'd never done it. asks if i want to try and ends up leaving for another 20 minutes to get it. i remember it being very peculiar being in this guys place waiting for him to go get crack. i called a friend from the place to say where i was. we had very intense sex, lots of cock sucking and verbal abuse. he brought out pictures which appeared to taken from underwear catalogues and layed on top of me making me look at the pictures and telling me stories about what he had done to these guys. beating them up and such. telling me not to worry he wasn't going to do that with me. i was far too pretty. sometime after dawn, when the crack had run out, he asked if i wanted to smoke some acid as well. he wasn't sure whether it would be effective smoking it and i wasn't really interested. he ended up fucking me nasty and i was able to watch in a mirror seeing only his head and torso as he fucked me. like porn it was. so later i find out he's actually in my circle of friends. a bit of a local celebrity to boot. have never connected with him since. once i saw him at a bathhouse slapping a guy on the face who was sucking his cock. today i saw him entering a porno theater. i so wanted to follow him in. i had an agenda today (friend from mexico coming saturday) and had already jerked off upon waking up so as not to have the sexual distraction. so sad. 5:47 PM (0) comments

Tuesday, May 18, 2004 yesterday a friend gave me some cialis to try. in fact he gave me six of them, it's good to have friends. me with a day off today i could think of nothing better to do then to pop some cialis and head over to the bathhouse. the cialis came in 20mg pills and split it into quarters, took a quarter and then about an hour later i took another quarter as i didn't think i was getting any results. usually i take 25mg of viagra, splitting a 100mg again into quarters so i was skeptical about 5 or even 10mg of cialis. got to the bathhouse and a hispanic guy was my first. sucking on my cock for a goodly amount of time eventually asking if he could fuck me. as soon as he put the condom on and entered me he started talking. it was sex talk but it didn't seem heated or dirty. almost like he was just talking away. telling me how much he loved to fuck but as if we we're having coffee and not actually fucking. he came quite quickly and i wasn't disappointed. the next guy to come in has got to be my pick for fuck of the year. dark haired, some chest hair and very hairy legs. cute. i saw his dick first and wanted it inside of me instantly. came in the room and started sucking on my dick expertly. he was hard when he came in the room and i always think that means i'm going to get fucked. again i wasn't disappointed. thanks to the cialis i was hard as a rock the whole time he fucked me. i came a little and so stopped playing with myself. he came and started thanking me right away. i was hoping i could coax another fuck out of him but alas. thought after him i should leave because i knew it would be all downhill. still i stuck around. did a big younger guy with gray hair. expected a big dick but it was average. nice fucker though. told me to straddle him and shortly after i did i came. we fucked right through my cumshot then he actually asked to do it doggie style. who am i to say no? after that i thought i'd take a breather but a big muscle guy started walking back and forth in front of my door. i'm hard just watching him and so when he stops in front of the door i pull my dick out for him to see. he's hard as well, with the help of a cock ring and wastes no time going for my ass. we start off a la the doggie and i'm backing onto him like mad. he stops after a bit and says he dosen't want to cum yet. tells me he's precumming like mad. i look at the condom as he's taking it off and would have said he had came. we keep playing a bit but just as i'm ready to slap another condom on and ride him he leaves. did a tasty little short guy. had seen him earlier go into a room where the guy was lying on his belly so i assumed shorty was a top. i was able to get fucked on my back and keep my feet on the bed. don't know if it was because he was short but i found it very pleasureable. he came and apologized for me not cumming. i told him i had already came twice and he seemed a bit shocked. left very abruptly. after that i had some boring oral sex encounters. then an expert cocksucker taking me all the way and holding it. sucked on my dick for what seemed like forever and chewed my ass out good too. i make for the condoms as he's hard and i'm bored of head, even good head. he announces that he doesn't fuck and leaves. my my. a couple people i know are at the baths at this point. when they ask when i got there i don't realize what time it is. i tell them and they express shock at the fact that i've been there for over 6 hours. 'isn't there anyone here?' oh yes there were guys but i keep servicing them and sending them home. i'm a well behaved boy. 12:30 AM (2) comments

Friday, May 14, 2004 i'm telling you, the buzzed of hair is working for me overtime. last night someone i've messaged a number of times of the last two years messaged me out of the blue. i'd given on up on him and the only thing i can attribute it to is the change in looks. we didn't end up connecting last night but now i can taste it. got on line as soon as i woke up this morning and within half an hour i had a date set up for this afternoon. tall and terribly skinny older guy but cute and a fat cock. i knew when to expect him but had forgotten i left the door open so he walked in on me pulling my cock. which gets us right down to business. worse then i am for grunting he was. as a general rule i don't usually have it in me for words and just noises come out of me. good noises. he sounded like an animal. in fact i would go so far as to say a dog in particular. even though i was a total bottom for him i was totally the dominant through the whole episode. bucking on his dick like a wildman. no, like a wildgeek! had pleasant chat afterwards. my liquor is on display and he got right into a discussion on the absenthe. told me had tried to make his own. bla bla bla. you've fucked me, i've given you a glass of water, isn't it time to move on? that said, i'd do him again. 4:42 PM (2) comments

Wednesday, May 12, 2004 i get home late last night and decide to go for a quick online cruise. i noticed a guy who i chatted a couple times with last year but neither of us could entertain. look at me with my own place now. i send him a message telling him i've got my own place now and the general area. he messages back 'just send the address'. i do and then he messages back he'll be here in 15 minutes. i scurry around trying to hide anything incriminating. he's quite prompt and we begin right after the door closes. he asks if i party. oh ya i'm a party girl. asks what i have and i say pot. he thought i'd have something harder. ummm, if your going to ask shouldn't you offer. i take asking 'do you party?' as an offer of something or other. he pulls out poppers. had the nerve to turn down a joint. i suck his cock at the front door. he goes on about me being a good boy. i am that and well behaved. 'you want your ass fucked boy?' and of course i do so we head into the bedroom. he grabs lube first and must sense my tensing cause he says 'don't worry i play safe'. i take it from behind for all of 30 seconds where he proceeds to plop himself down and insist that i ride him. oh yes please. i bounce like a madman. he says i'm a very horny boy and desperate for cock. indeed i am. then he starts questioning when i was fucked last. bah. he slaps my face and i like it. hard too. slaps me a couple more times then it feels like he's knocked my jaw out. i slap him back. i don't think he was expecting that at all. before i know it my face is being shoved into a pillow and i'm getting plowed. it seems like all his weight is bearing down on me. he pulls out, lays on his back and gets his fingers right up my ass. it hurts but real nice like. i start cumming but seem to halt it and then nope more comes out but i don't really orgasm. we replace the condom and i start bouncing like a madman again. smartly this time i grab his wrists and pin him into place. of course i have to pull on my dick again and he starts choking me. this enough. if he had thought i came before (and there was a lot) it was nothing compared to the amount i unleashed on his belly. not to be topped he pulls out and cums forever. spurt after spurt after spurt after...i was going to ask if it ever stopped. and just this whimper from him at the end. i grab a towel and a face cloth for him, he darts for the bathroom and is getting in the shower before i realize it. my *homework* bag is hanging in there. bah. who cares. he leaves quite quickly and forgets his poppers. score. 3:56 PM (0) comments

Tuesday, May 11, 2004 fell in love at the bathhouse last week. right, i make light of love, fell in lust. when the guy came in my room i thought he was one of the straight dancers from work. then i noticed his tattoo though in the same location was not the same tattoo. beautiful cock. which explains my obession. my bet would be 10 inches but it may have been 9. mental note start carrying a measuring tape. his cock came out a bit and then curved directly down. i figured i would only be able to take it doggy style but he proved me wrong flipping me over and throwing my legs onto his shoulders. yummy. unfortunately i left my poppers out and he found them. shortly after finding them he pulled out and came into the condom. very hot but leaving me all horned up. i had to tell one guy 4 times NO and on the fifth time i just got up and left. the roommate sitaution thickens and sickens me. fortunatley he's avoiding me. i'm afraid when he does contact me i'll just forgive and resent. 7:42 PM (1) comments

Tuesday, May 04, 2004 got rid of my hair yesterday. it's not really such a radical thing. i had been using up all my hair products with the intent of losing the hair when there was none left. how i love product. my theory on the real reason i shaved my head: i bought this delicious body scrub, it's a delightful sugar, jojoba & grapeseed oil concoction and it takes up a good chunk of shower time hence i had to lose the whole shampoo & conditioning routine. whatever. it got me out to the bathhouse. has it been 3 weeks since i had gay sex? possibly even a month since i've been to the tubs. certainly worth the wait. got there and chewed through 2 guys sucking on my dick in like 30 minutes. the second guy was going to go change (yes i let him come in the room with his clothes on) and come back so i could fuck him i think. he asked me 'are you into fucking?' and of course i am. then he just said 'hard?' and sure i love doing it hard but i still wasn't certain if it was fucking hard as a top or fucking hard as a bottom. bah. i was horny and didn't care. he had a *supremacist thug* look going for him and me a skinhead, i pictured some nasty cazzo film going on in my head. before he returned a big bulky black man walked past my room a number of times. i imagine he could have picked me up and carried me off he'd liked. instead he came in the room. i swear his chest must have been twice as thick as me. so smooth to the touch though. a hard uncut cock too. i love it when they're hard from the get go. my ass just instantly hears the condom going on. i was in lucky room #69 and we started with some back and forth cock sucking but switched into some tasty sixtynining. is there a number for when i suck his cock and he ravages my hole with his mouth? i'd get lost in him eating my ass and forget to suck on his cock but he'd grab it right away and shove it back in my face. we layed face to face with me on top and rubbed nasties together. i went with my dick towards his ass and he wasn't for that all. my ass did a twitch knowing it was going to get the workout. he started banging at my back door with his cock. i began to worry that he might be a barebacker and demurred a bit. got on my knees and sucked his cock a bit more. taking it all the way this time with some gentle help from him. i've said it before, i get so far on a cock and then i need you to shove it in. worked wonderfully and with him sitting up he was in a position to see the condoms and lube on the table. eventually he reached for a condom. put it on and then had me in on my back with legs up in no time without saying a word. just by directing me with his hand on my body. i know what your thinking, duncan has helium heels and i'd be the first to agree but this was a large cock. i was hoping to sit down on it first and ease onto it. just as he entered me, as i let out my first audible groan, there was a knock on the door. changee boy must have finally returned. too bad. i shoved down on a bit more of the dick and though to myself 'a dick in the ass is worth two in the hallway'. i was in heaven. i can be something of a lie back and fuck me sometimes but i was all over this guy. mostly i was grabbing his ass while he fucked me, wishing i could feel more then just the outside of the cheeks. a mirror would have been handy. he'd hold my legs up by the ankles, then the knees, then i would pull them into me. we just fucked and fucked. i successfully wheeled out from under him at one point and switched the condom on him. got lube all over my own hand that time and was able to start playing with myself proper while he fucked me. i came shortly after that but rather quietly. it wasn't for some time that he grabbed at my dick and realized i came. he said he should stop and i told him he didn't have to. went back at it double time. sweat was dripping off of him onto me. almost as good as being covered in cum. he told me he could keep going on like this forever. he dosen't cum this way. i swear my ass grabbed onto him at that point and told me not to let him go. "say bill it's better then that powder you rub on my lips" i couldn't go on any longer though with the thought of him not cumming as a result of it. let this be a tip to you all, don't let duncan get lube on his dick or else it's all over. wait though, the moral of this story really is if your between duncan's legs just keep going. isn't it? why can't it be both? 1:42 PM