Friday, July 30, 2004 last night i was split between going to the bathhouse or the theater. went to the theater. not busy at all. nothing attracting my eye. i've been going there alot recently and i wondered why. sure part of it is proximity, being less then 5 minutes away is handy. i've noted my cruising techniques are very different between the two. at a bathhouse i operate from my room, only going out for quick surveys and then back to the room. at the theatre i can't stand still, constantly on the move looking for cock. not that this observation has anything to do with my recent compulsion for the theater. as i wondered to myself last night while i was not getting gay sex i realized what it is. i'm still hoping to run into that crazy russian fucker. split lip and all. he fucked me like i was some crazy rag doll and really i'm craving that again. that feeling where i just can't get fucked anymore but he dosen't want to stop. i've been in a funk for the last week at least. i'm sure it's directly related to a lack of great sex. 7:58 PM (0) comments

Monday, July 26, 2004 i've been a little under the weather the past few days.  happens every year around august or september, seems a little early this year.  just one massive sinus pain.  yesterday started pumping myself fill tylenol sinus pills.  they create an interesting buzz if you ask me.  by the end of the day i was quite stoned and feeling acceptable.  so what do i do?  i finish off the last of the g i've been sitting on and head off to the theatre.  after days of not even thinking about gay sex i thought it might be okay to just pop in.  i mean i had to go out to pick up some smokes.  adding g on to the mix may have been a mistake but one never knows until tried. shortly after getting inside the goop started affecting me.  seemed rather mild so i completely finished off what i had.  my eyes were having a hard time adjusting to the darkness.  there was what seemed like an attractive young man interested in my but i couldn't make out for sure whether or not i wanted to pursue anything with him.  guess i flubbed my oppurtunity with him because shortly after i watched someone else suck him off.  the whole time i watched he wouldn't even look at me so i gave up. some beefy bossy looking guy followed me into a dark area, i sat down in a chair.  he sidled up next to me and took out his dick.  he was very vocal and many guys came by to watch.  huge balls and wanted them constantly played with.  i knew before i got there i wasn't going to be getting any ass action so i went all out on my cock sucking.  made love to his dick.  at one point he said 'wait while i get a chair' and then we were both sitting.  many guys came by but none brought there dicks close to me.  then all of a sudden there were two guys going at it right next to us.  eventually the sucker gave up on the dick and i went for a taste of it.  the first cock got jealous or had enough and left.  second cock came fairly quickly. i head out for another survey.  end up at the exact same place sucking cock through a glory hole.  a curvy uncut dick.  he cums.  as he pulls away from the glory hole i see someone waiting behind him.  stick my face through the glory hole and sticks his dick in.  a much larger cock this time.  unfortunately i go right to town and he cums in minutes.  i swear i must have a mouth like butter.  he came quite a bit and i ended up with most of it on me. go for a clean up.  a friend from years ago is there.  i say 'good evening sir' and get no acknowledgement.  maybe he dosen't recognize me i think.  it is dark.  it has been years.  i am lacking hair.  get slightly excited about the prospect of possibly nailing him.  suck a cock for awhile through a glory hole thinking it is his.  it's not.  an aggressive asian guy begins assaulting me.  i leave.   12:25 PM (0) comments

Thursday, July 22, 2004 am i the only one who gets turned off by 'what do you like to do'?  especially if we're in the middle of doing what i like to do!  being verbal is ok but being in the dark that's something else. i go to the theater last night.  when did i turn into such a theater pig?  not very busy but enough interesting bodies.  first guy is great, in fact i can't be 100% sure but i think it was the guy who said i would be fun to play with naked.  we started out in a public area, moved when some guy didn't get the hint that we weren't interested.  began again and yet another interupption.  he says 'follow me' and we headed to the cubicle i think we played together in last time.  there were many other cubicles we passed on the way but it seemed he wanted that one.  fucked my face good.  sucked me a little.  then i swore i heard him say he wanted to eat my ass.  didn't make for my ass though.  i figured he was speaking figuratively.  then he said it again.  i turned around and waited to see what happened.  some tentative licking of my crack.  okay.  then some kissing.  okay.  i go back at his cock.  then he barks that he wants to eat my ass.   i bend right over and make my ass as open as possible.  now i get a proper ass eating.  delicious.  i turn around and kiss him and he says 'you taste good don't you?'.  ummm, yes i do.  he ends up shooting a load on my shoes.  i will have him fuck my ass.  i think he'll be a nasty give no mercy fucker. i'm right horned up now.  i catch a guy's eye and i go for his crotch.  he starts sucking me off.  nicely.  someone else comes along and plays with my ass.  the watcher starts getting chatty.  'looks good' & 'how does that feel'  blah blah blah.  sucker dosen't like it and moves us to a cubicle.  fine.  once the door is shut he asks what i like to do.  i turn around and leave.  i'm sorry, if i have to tell you i don't want to do it i guess. i get close to a hottie who asks 'what do you get into?'.  i like to walk away from people who ask me questions like that apparently cause i'm off again.  i sit down in front of one of the big screens, light a cigeratte and start playing with myself through my shorts.  a shaved head hottie appears and instantly notices me.  i don't stop what i'm doing.  he comes and sits near me.  he more or less just watches.  his hand brushes his crotch area but dosen't linger.  i get up, walk past him, slowly, stop at the exit, see him looking and head towards a more secluded area.  he follows.  i go for his crotch and he announces he's pissed.  i take my dick out and force him down to my hard cock.  duncan, aggressive?  he sucks.  he's still not hard but now takes his dick out.  get him hard in my mouth.  mutual cock sucking back and forth.  then 'what would you like to do?' and a snort from me.  i ready myself to leave when he says 'i'd like you to fuck my ass' oh wait what's this, then he says 'i'd like to do it to you too'.  he takes his shirt off.  i take my shorts off.  start playing with his ass.  yes, i'd like to fuck it.  i pull lube out of the shorts and grease his hole and my dick.  stroking nicely with the lube now in place.  pull out a condom.  he says 'what are you going to do?'.  i smile but i'm sure he dosen't see that in the dark.  i put the condom on.  make sure he knows one is in place and bend him over.  i've said it before and i'll say it again i'm a ruthless top.  yelp yelp squirm squirm and i'm still plugging away at his ass.  finally he jumps away from me and says again 'i'm pissed'.  okay fine.  i pull off the condom.  his cock his hard.  i pull out a condom, put it on him, while he says 'i don't think i can do this'.  bah.  i've got him in my ass before he knows it.  i'm not sure getting my ass fucked right now is such a great idea so when he pulls out and says he dosen't think he can do it i don't cry. we end up both of us on our knees, jerking off and holding hands.  how sweet.  how lucky i use my left hand for masturbation.  he says 'i can cum in 20 seconds'.  ya so?  is he boasting or telling me he's going to?  we go well past the 20 seconds and he says 'i'm waiting for you to cum'.  ah.  i can drag this out for ever young man and do.  finally i cum and even in the dark i see his shots, 3, which makes my little piddle seem like just that.  a little piddle. 2:36 PM (0) comments

Monday, July 19, 2004 sure the theatre is nice but last night i went to the bathhouse.  popped some viagra first, a last minute thought.  got there, got naked and did a quick survey of the establishment.  a number of guys caught my eye, in particular one half of a couple and so i made a dash for my room to set up shop.  the couple followed.  the one i found attractive seemed to be the leader (duh) and the other was kind enough to shut the door behind himself.  both had buzz cuts and leader was lean with a long straight cock.  follower stockier and with a thick stubby cock.  delicious.  i took turns sucking them off and played a bit with both in my mouth (thinking let's see if i can't fit both in my ass).  found myself on all fours sucking 'lean' off, who handed a condom and lube to 'stocky'.  nice.  stocky fucks like a madman.  pound pound pound.  lean keeps my moans stifled with his cock.  could i ask for more?  lean reaches for a condom, my ass contracts and stocky let's out a growl.  he steps aside to let lean have a go at my ass.  he's a little more deliberate in his motion.  dosen't get much time though, stocky has put on another condom and actually taps lean on the shoulder as if to say 'enough pig'.    lean comes back and starts jerking off in my face.  stocky is literally ripping into me.  i get my head under lean and head for his ass.  very nice.  can't really rim him proper as i'm getting bounced around from behind but i'm sure this feeling is a little bit of heaven.  he cums on my upper back.  must have looked hot cause stocky dosen't fuck me much longer before pulling out and cumming all over my lower back.  a glow sets in.  lean rubs my head like a dog before leaving.  woof indeed.   a rinse and another stockier guy follows me to my room.  i'm not sure i find him that attractive but figure this is what i'm here for.  he's got a hard-on (average) when he takes off his towel so i don't regret my decision.  some uncomfortable 69 and then he finds me receptive to ass play.  all of a sudden he's between my legs and fingering my ass.  i grin and bear it.  9 times out of 10 you finger my ass and i'm going to stop you this was that 1 time.  i'm quite eager when he asks if i like to fuck.  he reaches for the lube and does his own ass up.  i think what kind of kinky shit is this?  before i know it he's got my cock covered and he's squating down on it.  wait wait isn't it my ass that should be getting fucked.  he seems to be having some difficulty getting me in.  then he motions for me to get up, he lays down and his ankles float up.  hell, why not?  now what's this,  moans, squeezes and yelps of pain until he says i can't do it.  fortunately this dosen't mean the end it just means i get fucked.  the moral of this story is don't fuck with duncan unless your going to fuck him or some such thing.  fucks me nicely and it's my turn for the yelps of pain.  yes you heard right, don't know what he was doing down there but damn it hurt good.  he cums and i'm still sitting on the cumshot from yesterday.   finally i get to open my door and watch the traffic go by.  nice.  nice.  very nice.  no one is coming in though.  i have a cigeratte and still no nibblers.  i do a run through and set up shop again.  a shorter asian or latino guy, hard to tell, darker skinned anyway, well he comes in.  a very nice uncut cock.  thick, with thick foreskin, lots to play with.  i actually eyeball his ass and start playing with it while 69.  again i play top.  another scenario where he asked if i liked to fuck and i wasn't sure who would be fucking who until the condom was placed on my dick.  he starts out sitting down on me as well.  then on his belly.  finally i figure he must be ready and i turn him on his back and really let go.  he cums but shows no sign of abating.  when i do he asks if i'm done.  i tell him i need a shower, he says he does too.  i let him leave and have a cigeratte.  then a lite snooze.   wake up, shower and he's back.  i don't feel like fucking him again and he gives me a little snort when he walks out.  a giant of a hairy man is walking the halls and i just want to rub my ass all over him.  a shorter muscle guy who has a darker tan then me gives me the zing a couple times.  quite possibly the hottest guy there and he's making for me?  i make for the room.  he dosen't follow.  hairy walks by and pays me no mind.  i run through the halls again and this time muscles practically blocks my way.  i make for the room again and this time he follows.  we play a bit with the door open.  me with his chest and he with my dick.  rock hard i am too.  he goes to suck on it then shuts the door instead.  we remove towels and i go for his dick.  i can't wait to wrap my legs around him.  i think to myself i'm going to punch him when he's fucking me.  what's this then, again the condom goes on my dick.    i fuck him a mean streak.  half out of disappointment.  at one point he says 'you can fuck my ass all you want' and at that point i make him my doll.  at one point i have one foot on the floor, one on the bed fucking him sideways on all fours sticking my tongue out at him in the mirror.  oh to have a camera at that point.  my favourite position to get fucked in, missionary and it's my fave to fuck with to.  first we do it with me standing with my face buried in his feet.  then i'm up on the bed.  i tell you i am a ruthless top and he loved it.  like me he wasn't hard while i fucked him.  if i'm getting a good fuck it's all i need and hard on be damned.  i'm thinking it was the same for him.  he tells me to cum inside of him and i have to oblige him.  afterwards i lie on top of his hardness while we make out.   i floated home. 3:38 PM (0) comments

Sunday, July 18, 2004 tried GHB for the first time last night.  which narrows down the drugs i haven't tried.  have wanted to try it ever since i heard of it (as it would seem is the case with any drug and me).  the cautions of overdosing were warned to me by supplier.  i need no warnings but i paid heed.  was warned that it tasted awful but i didn't find it such.  salty.  wanted to know that i wouldn't be alone when i did it but i'm not going out cruising with someone else (well that's another story isn't it) and supplier almost held back.  was told it would take 20 minutes and to wait at least an hour before doing anymore.   took it just as i was leaving the house to head over to the theatre.  was quite a delicious effect.  sort of like being drunk but without all the piss.  i of course want to try more right away but fortunately some hunk with a moustache right out of the seventies pulls his dick out.  i go at it with a vengance.  in a slightly public area but with 3 walls so we're able to keep to ourselves and still put on a show.  not that i'm an exhibitionist, because i'm not at all but at the same time i don't mind people watching if that's what they remain doing.  i like to watch and understand someone has to let me watch, if you catch what i'm saying.  i was tempted to pull out a condom and slap it on but the oppurtunity didn't arise.  he came and i moved on.  i checked out the audience first, not a one with even their hands on their cocks.  i can't suck on what i can't see.   hadn't actually been an hour but i felt it had peaked and i was ready for more.  took some more and off for more cock.  found one through a glory hole that was sweet.  not too big not too small and actually had my fingers on the condom when someone became overly touchy with me.  moved on.  cock from glory hole came out to find me and i decided i wouldn't want him in my ass.   at this point i think i was moving very very slowly through the enviroment.  decided to lock up my possesions.  found a practically full pack of cigerattes and was totally jazzed.  fooled around a bit with a guy i've seen there a couple times.  not at all attractive to me but an attractive individual to the rest of the world i assume.  it was lackluster which does go to prove i should follow my instincts.   noticed an asian guy i've seen there a couple times playing with himself.  he normally does but is very discreet about it.  last night he was alot more showy and would give it that little extra when i walked by.  finessed him to a glory hole and went to town.  really nice cock.  uncut, thick and just the slightest bit longer then average.  i sucked him for quite awhile and then lead him to a cubicle.  some mutual sucking and alot of groping from him.  i cover him up and he seems to get longer and harder as i roll it on.  my ass smiles.   unfortunately the motion isn't great.  i could certainly make myself cum if i had wanted but at that point i started to think the internet was still a possibilty.  ended up pulling him out.  jerking him off and faking my own orgasm.  hell it was dark he wasn't going to know.  got home and cruised for a bit but ended up having a nice sleep.   i'm still sitting on a cumshot. 6:53 PM (0) comments

Saturday, July 17, 2004 finally i have the colour i so richly deserve with no small thanks to maui babe browning lotion.  maybe it's a loud of crock (caffeine protecting against skin cancer) but i love smelling like fresh coffee.  and really, who can complain about slathering oil on their body.   treated myself to a new aroma today.  lauder for men.  now i smell like a rich old lady.  delicious.   as for gay sex, i've been enjoying my porn collection way too much.  tonight i take it up the ass from a stranger.  8:38 PM (1) comments

Friday, July 16, 2004 number one, i will not fall in love with a dancer.   number two, i will not fall in love with a guy because he has a big dick.   number three,  what's all this talk about love for?   speaking of love and big dicks.  i'm at the bathhouse the other night and this ugly fucker is there.  so ugly he's hot hot hot as far as i'm concerned.  i've played with him before and it's always been fun.  huge fat cock and likes to fuck.  it's not very busy and when i see him i think score.  he's playing with himself in the hallway and i'm ready to suck on it right there.  as i get closer to him he covers his cock up.  hi?!?  i keep walking and wonder what's going on.    i fool around with a couple other guys.  one with a less then average cock who fucked like a charm.  the fact that he was growling at me in a spanish accent couldn't have had made his dick bigger in my ass could it?  another guy who, after fucking me and cumming fights me for my dry towel claiming it's his.  really soured my sweet ass.   i give up shortly after that.  the ugly fucker hides his dick from me a couple more times.  i wanted to yell at him 'it's been in my ass why can't i see it'.  fucker.     12:56 PM (0) comments

Monday, July 12, 2004 after a brief sojourn into the internet dating game last night i preceded directly to the theater. a friend is in town and i half expected to run into him there. not that carrying a conversation would be possible. cruising spots are like libraries. please keep this in mind for future reference. it wasn't very busy and i was the belle of the ball. anywhere i stopped for longer then a minute would all of a sudden become the cruising zone. fun but makes it difficult if your only interested in one. there were actually two i was interested in but finessing that moment alone seemed practically impossible. after what seemed like the whole night one of the hotties asked me how i was. 'pretty good' and there's at least one person here that can attest to it. i'll admit there had been a rather unattractive man with a rather large penis sticking out of his pants and well... so after asking me how i was he slipped into a cubicle. i followed, tried to lock the door behind me but was rather unsucessful. the place wasn't busy anyway and it was a cubicle with a rather low door, no difficulty in looking in so why bother locking them out. i went right for his cock which was already hard. you know anytime that happens i just want to throw a condom on but i held back. he seemed fascinated by my chest, pulling my shirt up, running his hands over it and licking it. asked me to take my shirt off and i obliged. duncan's natural smoothness wins out again. i in fact was also enthralled with his torso. thick. was expecting very hairy but i'd say just 'hairy'. we had progressed to kissing (he was hot) and some heavy duty frottage. toss in a bit of mutual masurbation and me sucking on his cock here and there and you have an idea. all the while me thinking 'should i grab a condom now?'. he told me 'i'd be fun to play with naked' and it seemed to me i had played with him before. not sure, but the line rang a bell. was expecting an invite back to his place but it didn't follow. we ended up both jerking off a load. with him saying he wanted me to cum with him. got to bed a little earlier then usual last night. 11:47 AM (0) comments

Saturday, July 10, 2004 was having the worse night ever last night at work. seemed like everyone was conspiring to make my night miserable. near the end of the night i was out on the floor and someone grabbed at me. instead of snapping i walked on past. i was on the hunt for some chocolate, needed a sugar fix. lol. not thinking i walked past the same area where i had been grabbed and got grabbed again. this time i stopped and it was the guy from tuesday night. mental note, stop telling tricks where you work. then again, i was on the hunt for chocolate! it was near the end of the night and he spent the rest of the shift in the booth with me. surprisingly dancers were not all taking note. came back to my place and fooled around extensively. i was uncomfortable though with the thought of the roommate walking in on us at anytime. took him to the 'theatre'. turns out he had never been. should have showed him around a bit but took him right to a booth. i did however notice that the place was hopping. apparently afterwards he told me we had quite a few onlookers. duncan's horny bottom self was in control though and only noticed his large cock. i came fairly soon but again was able to fuck on through it. ended up jerking him off with both my hands though. you gotta love a two hand cock. commented afterwards that this time was even nastier then last time when we did it in my bathroom which sent him into convulsions of laughter. he was thinking the same thing. 1:57 PM (0) comments

Thursday, July 08, 2004 duncan got plastered on long island ice tea yesterday. an emphasis being placed on the tequila. i didn't actually have that much to drink but kept it going for a 8 hour period. never really going right over the edge (i think). i'm bad with the drink, i reach a point where i say i should stop and if i do all is good. if not hell can break loose. ended up going to the bathhouse and hooking up immediately with a tall, dark and handsome. the cock was long, bendy and thick. delightful. all he wanted to do was fuck my ass. delightful. we fucked for quite awhile before i even brought out the poppers. he reached spots in my i don't think any man has. he was a gentleman and fucked me right through my orgasm so i returned the favour and allowed him to continue fucking me. for so long that i had to cum again! after that one i had to stop, i pulled away from him and took off the condom. immediately he pulled off a load and what seemed like a spasm. his head just shaking. we layed together for quite awhile and then he suggested we shower. we hot tubbed after the shower at his suggestion as well with some light play. back to my room and he's still playful. i'm hungry and tell him so. he seems hestitant to leave as we would have to pay to get back in. i didn't realize we were going to go at it again. he also said 'unless we can go back to your place'. i didn't respond. we made the opening of the breakfast buffet at a 24 hour place. i made an absolute pig of myself. he poked at one plate. we left and were very touchy on the street. i was ready to go again and thought what the hell perhaps i'll bring him back to the apartment. though he had told me his name i couldn't understand through his accent what it was so before we came up i clarified his name. wasn't going to try and introduce him to the roommate without knowing his name. we layed down and there wasn't really the urge for me anymore. i think i fell asleep to him rubbing his cock against my hole and woke up to it as well. a light sleep of course and then i really was ready for another round. i was a little greedy/horny and got off very quickly. he jerked himself off and i played with his ass. seemed recpetive to it and came. we slept. i've never brought someone to my place from the baths like that. ended up i sort of hurried him out. he had an appointment he wasn't sure he could make but i said of course he could. apparently he made it but rescheudled. returned to my place. uh oh. this time i did actually have to ask him to leave. which didn't go over well. wanted to see me again though was left in the air. is still in the air in my head too. 12:57 AM (0) comments

Thursday, July 01, 2004 is it love again? howsabout just letting me rub my sweet ass on that muscle sticking out next to his belly. cristiano ronaldo and duncan sitting in a tree... further update on mr. blindfold. the next day he sends me an apology claiming 'scheduling'. right. asks if i'm still interested. interested in being blindfolded (and a hood apparently as well) and having someone else procur cock for my ass. yes please i'm still interested. however, he had mentioned me having to pass a qualifying test, appearing at his door bottomless. so i told him i was still interested but thinking of a qualifying test. what is good for the goose is not necessarily good for gay sex it seems. after i sent out the email i figured out how he could show he was serious. 3 tops ready to go. this guy is talking about pimping my ass out, i think he could have 3 hard cocks ready for me to choose from. i'll even go so far as to make it a test for me too. let me see the cocks and then blindfold me and i'll tell you which is which. anywho, i didn't get a chance to suggest the idea to him. he emailed back that it was funny i was coming up with this but it wasn't going to happen. he did the testing. i had to tell him i couldn't really take him seriously after the other night. i'll give it some time and reconsider i'm sure. 5:43 PM (0) comments

having absolutely nothing to do with gay sex but if i can't tell you who can i tell? last night at bridge (oh gawd) i got the top score possible. i was in 7 no trump doubled redoubled and vunerable. it dosen't get better then that! and i made it! one step further for card players. when i asked my partner for aces and kings, he answered wrong, leaving me thinking we had all the aces and the kings. bah, now you know where the geek in wildgeek comes from. 12:12 PM (1) comments

tcka tcka i check out the possibilties for internet sex last night and the guy who wants to blindfold me and pimp my ass out is online. score. the sun and the moon are in the right place, i'm going to get fucked silly. i have my reservations but i guess i'd rather have regrets then 'what ifs'. he gives me a choice of going to the tubs, outside, or his place and i say the tubs would probably be the easiest. he had previously mentioned an 'obedience test' which could involve showing up at his place bottomless (set up so it would be safe). if it's set up to be safe what's the point. i'm upfront with him and tell him i will fail any qualifing test that involves public nudity. i tell him i'll need about 20 minutes to 'freshen up' and don't wait for a response but jump to it. i come back and he's sent me a message asking if what i'm into bareback or safe, breeding, eating cum, advise. advise? i've told him prior to this date that i'm into condoms (oh ya baby wrap it up) but figure maybe he's forgotten, fine. messages go back and forth but i'm ready to go. i send him a message asking if it's going to happen and he replies that i needed 20 minutes to get ready. i'm ready now. geez. tells me he's also working the phone line. i was turned off the idea because it was taking too long, i asked him why the phone line if we were heading to the bathhouse. an appetizer was his reply and i was back in. time goes by. i say 'let's get this show on the road'. more questions start. fack. i tell him i'm about ready to head to the bathhouse on my own. he asks which one and i tell him. then he asks if he can bring his blindfold and hood. i'm absolutely floored. this is his kink right, i understand the whole concept and have told him i'm right into it. now he's asking if he can bring his blindfold and hood? this is the guy that is going to procur "constant sex" for me. i'm pissed at myself for wasting so much time with him. in his earlier cut and paste reply to me he mentions 'you supply the chems' which had sort of irked me. here i am fulfilling his fantasy of having a blindfolded bottom to pimp out and i supply the chems. not that i want or need any but he's bringing them up. my rule is if you bring them up in the conversation it's because you have them and want to share. now all this time wasted just because i want some one to procur my tops for me, while i'm blindfolded? i could have blindfolded myself and got more sex. as it turns out i got enough sex on my own and kept my eyes closed on my own accord. 10:21 AM (0) comments