Saturday, November 27, 2004 gay sex and my penchant for big cocks got me in a lather last night. it being thanksgiving the place was man on top of man, literally. my first was a geeky red head, probably younger then me but who knows. i sucked on his cock through a glory hole for a bit and then a different cock poked through, and after that another one. it seemed like they were all on the other side going 'hey this one has no gag reflex'. had at least 5 guys watching me go at these different cocks, some trying to play with mine but i had it firmly in my hand and wasn't sharing it. i had noticed this big ugly guy walking around with his shirt open and dick sticking out but that was it, i just noticed him. i was standing in one of my favourite little nooks when he came by and stopped. i figured his dick was already out what the hell. the minute i laid my hands on it i was man transformed. it must have been 10 inches long hard and twice the thickness of my cock. down right massive. i was all over him with my hands and mouth with my ass just crying out at the thought of slipping over him. a crowd had formed and a smaller asian guy came up close and started touching this guy's cock too. we looked at each other and he said to me 'it's huge' and i said 'i want to try and put it in my ass' to which he said again 'it's huge'. at this point big boy walked away. i zipped up my pants and sped after him. even noticing some big cocks sticking out of the crowd that had formed. i followed big guy into a dark area and once he was up against a wall i was on him like glue. this time i lifted my shirt over my head and dropped my drawers. again i played with his dick with my mouth and hands. then i was rubbing myself up against him, he was quite furry. he played with my cock a bit, which i must admit was hard as a rock. then, out of nowhere he started saying 'sorry sorry' and walked away again. this time i lost him and really, would it have been becoming of me to go begging after his cock a third time? more on that later. at this point i didn't care who but someone was going to fuck my ass. i found 'red' and we made our way into a stall. immediately the shirt was up over my head and my pants were down, i wasn't wasting anytime. he took out his cock and began pawing me mercilessly. however his ass play was limited and i had an agenda. after some mutual cock sucking i tested the waters by turning my back to him. he rubbed his cock in the groove of my ass and that was all i needed. i had his dick wrapped and in me in record time. a nice rythym and it seemed sustainable. after a lengthy period, at one point i was hanging from the edge of the top of the stall and my feet on the little ledge you can sit on while i bounced down on his dick, i pulled off of him and took my pants off completely. replaced his condom and went at it again. he seemed to love my body just rubbing all over. unfortunately, as i was thinking to myself i was going to take him to a stall where i could lay out on my back his pace slowed down and he announced 'i'm coming'. i showered. ran into a friend and announced that the biggest cock i've seen in a long time is here and won't fuck me. played with a few guys but the thought of that big cock some where in the building was driving me wild. i finally found him sitting watching porn alone and smoking roll me own cigerattes. hot. i observed him from behind a curtain for awhile, he knew i was there. someone came up to him and said 'we should go' and he said 'a couple more minutes'. when his friend left, he walked past me and into a glory hole. i went for it. i know what cock suckers are like out there, i don't have a big dick and i would say over half the guys who suck on my cock can't take it and here i am mastering this guy's cock after he's aborted me twice. i try to get inside with him, i want to be fucked but he takes his dick away from me when i do this. i get back in front of the glory hole and hope he gives it to me again. this time i hold onto it and am not prepared to let it go until i've had my way with him. i get the first taste of cum and pull out to watch what seems like buckets pour out. thank god i didn't try to swallow his load. after that everything seemed mundane. i headed home and tried the internet dating game. noticed big guy and his friend were on line as well, a couple. big guy is listed as a top. friend does zilch for me but i'll fake it for that cock in my ass. i figured i had already made quite the size queen whore of myself this evening and don't message them. i certainly bookmarked them though! 2:05 PM (5) comments

Friday, November 26, 2004 my libido got the better of me yesterday and i snuck out for a nooner of gay sex. a regular was there who i haven't seen in probably a year. walked by room twice without coming in. a hottie did make it in, in his 30's, very nice physique and that lack of hair on the head in certain places that can really turn me on. nice chewy cock but unfortunately for him it didn't get completely hard. my ass was hankering a good plowing and semi-hard cock just isn't going to work. my neighbour was this burly guy, in a bruce willis meets chris elliot kinda fashion. ya some combo i know. i see him at the tubs a lot and i think perhaps a long time ago we played together but it never seems to happen anymore. yesterday he came in my room and let me suck on his dick while he smoked a cigeratte. i found it very hot and was getting quite worked up when he begged off. 7 inches and uncut. in the steam room i am alone with the regular. after what seemed like an eternity (30 seconds which is forever in some gay sex right?) i just went right for his dick. to my surprise it wasn't the *regular* unless cock can get smaller in a year. went to the dry sauna and was followed by this apparent stranger with a smaller cock then should be. in the process of drying myself he began playing with my ass and i decided it was the regular now but perhaps in the steam room i had gotten mixed up. so that we is clear, i hadn't been drinking. back in the room the regular appears, and says, quotation marks here "no one is here. do you want some company for a few minutes?". i found it an odd way to phrase the act of gay sex, as if i'd only want to do it with him because another body wasn't handy. now that i was clear on it being the regular i was shocked to find that his dick was smaller then remembered, which i have a hard time believing. though i have photographic proof of his cock from years ago somewhere, when i first got a digital camera i used to take cock shots of guys who would let me after having sex with them. i considered it art. once we got his dick in my ass it seemed usual. i mean, i find him to be a good fucker, small cock or not. he has a pattern which i find enjoyable, at first a nice steady fucking motion, then double time (which of course drives me crazy) and then a break where he rests on me with his cock just forcing itself all the way in (apparently not as far as i previously thought) which then repeats. after a few rounds of this and me being covered in his sweat (not a bead of my own moisture) he asks if he can come back. yes please. after a clean up, some cock play and a little glory hole action the neighbour appears in front of my door with a cigeratte and his hand pulling on his cock through his towel. he comes in and i hoover myself right on to his cock. poppers are pulled out, used but not offered! bathhouse etiquette #23 offer the poppers before you do them but if not make sure you offer afterwards, one should never have to ask for poppers (that makes you a popper slut). he starts asking if i want his load and i do but i want it in my ass. i grab lube and start playing with myself while sucking on him (giving up on having his dick in my ass i guess) and we end up cumming together, he in my mouth and i shamefully on the floor. i want to do the straight porn thing and show him his load in my mouth but he's already out of there. i spit it out. 1:25 PM (2) comments

i know it's a gay sex blog but i'm going to try and sneak a little geek in here. :) first off unkle has a new track out with ian brown (of the stone roses - see 'fool's gold') called reign. a nice enough track on it's own but seek out the way out west remix. absolutely the hottest track in the world right now. my first memories of way out west are going back i don't know how many years now but they did some remixes of a track called not so manic now by i think dubstar, i could be wrong there and also a remix of salva mea by faithless. at least 5 years ago anyway and over the years i've enjoyed most of what they do. focus. reign (way out west mix) - unkle further geek ramblings. survivor last night really had me going. in a conversation with fellow survivor watchers i had to clarify that yes indeed scout is from lebanon, you know, is lebanesse. i had no inkling that ami was however. it made total sense and endeared me a little more towards here but caught me totally off gaurd. i guess somewhere around this point i realized i wasn't necessarily against the all girl alliance, it seemed fitting to pick the guys off like that because those fat bastards had voted off all the eye candy on me. i tell you though, i had quite the *smug* look on my face when they voted leann off. i'm still routing for twila! 1:00 PM (0) comments

Wednesday, November 24, 2004 gay sex has been suffering for me because of extenuating circumstances in my life right now. stress seems to be my middle name. the roommate continues to dick me around 6 months later and that dicking is distracting me from the real dicking i should be getting down to. last week he gets the rent to me 17 days late and then asks if he can borrow some money until the weekend, me being the sucker, lend him half of what he asks for. i know, i know, stupid! the weekend comes around and he tells me he's still 'expecting' the rest of it. i tell him as it's the weekend i'm expecting the cash i lent him back and that i have no intentions of giving him anymore. with december first nearly upon us i worry for him. my life savings have been chewed through supporting him and i see no evidence that he plans to change. in fact, while still owing me money he has the nerve to bring a bottle of wine into the house. aaargh. there are countless men out there, with nice big dicks, suffering because i'm not on the prowl. 10:35 AM (3) comments

Friday, November 19, 2004 justin theroux right, so okay, can someone tell me if i see more of this if i watch charlie's angels 2? clearly i'm watching it alone and with a tub of lube if so. 1:51 PM (1) comments

Thursday, November 18, 2004 went out for a brief session yesterday. sucked on a guy's cock for 30 seconds before he came. fooled around with a bit of street trash who just wanted to keep talking about how he used to be a stripper. unfortunately for him he did not have the cock to back up the talk. was about ready to give up when an asian guy approached me aggresively and i brought him back to my room. he was playing with my ass right away and it didn't take long for him to reach for a condom. he didn't have a big cock but he rammed it in me pretty quick and it hurt nasty. after a second i was ready to try again and he kept saying 'feel okay?' and it did. he fucked me long enough to put on 3 different condoms when i thought i was going to fuck him. as he had poked me pretty hard right from the start i figured it was a-ok for me to do the same (really i'm just a nasty top). though it was my turn to say 'feel okay?' to him he started asking me again. we came together. 2:31 PM (0) comments

Sunday, November 14, 2004 gay sex. gay sex. gay sex! perhaps i should have waited longer, at least until my second test results came back, which would be another week but i didn't. i act like a full fledged junkie and it's not even bug powder for chrissakes. i'm going out for an extravaganza of sex in my mind, the plan was to hit the theater for a quick round and then head to the bathhouse. my first taste of cock in over a week was through a glory hole. an average length but thick and with a head that's bigger then the rest of the cock. i tell you i made love to that cock. at points i had my face jammed into the hole letting him fuck my face and then i would pull back to just lick the whole cock. a couple times people molested me while i was doing it, the few who played with my ass were allowed to continue but as soon as any attempt at another form of contact was made i pulled their hands off of me. an agrressive fucker didn't think that was enough and i had to stop sucking on the cock, turn my head to face him and say 'no'. when i turned back i tasted cum on the cock and when i went to the bathroom i discover i had quite the load down the front of my white (thankfully) t-shirt. in the bathroom who should approach be but boris (or vlad the eatern european boyfriend i desire)! there seems to be some confusion as to which stall we are going into but we make our way into one. he kisses me and then asks 'what's this?' to the stain on my shirt. i smile demurely. he kisses me again and pulls out his cock, softer then i remember ever seeing it. i get down and start *playing* with it with my mouth. i stand up and quickly remove my trousers so i can play with myself. as i head back down he turns around and i'm faced with one furry ass. first i'm giving it the good sniff, then tentative licks and finally i'm right in there. i stand up and just want to rub my dick against his ass but he grabs his knapsack and pulls out a condom and poppers. 'sweet lord don't offer me the poppers before i'm inside of you' i think to myself. not only does he not wait until i am inside of him but he's offering it to me in the middle of putting on the condom. i could have just declined. anyway, i had no problems getting the condom on and getting inside of him even with the poppers. i fucked him nasty, i thought of my split lip (twice from him) and took it out on his ass. next thing i know, he's wrapped his dick up while i've been plugging away at him and he spins me around for a little turn about is fair play. unfortunately i'm not at all prepared for this and it hurts. he fucks me for a bit before i force him out and pull the condom off of him. he sits down on the toliet and is playing with himself, says to me 'i want to taste your cum'. i want to put another condom on him and try again. he pulls me towards him and rams what feels like his whole hand up my ass, clearly it's not but i'm turned on thinking it is. i pull up his shirt and marvel at his hairy chest as i jerk off. i could have cum a number of times but my night is just beginning and i stop myself, he turns into a raving cum slut. he offers me poppers again and still i'm able to hold onto my load to his very apparent frustration. i feel i should warn you, at this point the squeamish should stop reading. he takes his hand out of my ass, reaches into the toilet and splashes my dick with the contents. aargh. what the fuck is this? i'm totally disgusted and can't take my eyes off of his eyes, sort of saying 'what the fuck are you doing?' and he does it again. i cum. it made my dick all slippery what can i say? apparently it turned me right on too. he caught a bit of my cum on his tongue and let's it dangle there before spitting it out. we get dressed and i'm mapping the quickest route to the showers. i have to stop and get a locker, undress, and wait for the water to heat up. my head is reeling over what just happened. then he appears in the shower room fully clothed and smoking a cigeratte. a replay of our intial meeting as it was here in the shower. he starts directing me, wants me to bend over with my ass towards him. i soap myself and give him a tasty show. i haven't had a cigeratte since i got in the place and i'm craving his. i turn the water off and walk towards him. i've been using a delicious jojoba scrub and beads of water cover my body, i grab his cigeratte and smoke it. he says 'your a very good looking man' and i smile. then he asks me 'how many times have you cum tonight?' and i say 'once'. 'with who?' and i point to him, he looks surprised and then asks if i was wearing a red cap. ya pal, just 5 minutes ago you got me off with dirty toliet water. then he tells me i'm hot and asks why i don't have a boyfriend, i return the cigeratte and start towelling off. 'who said i don't have a boyfriend' i says all smug like and he says 'do you?' and i say 'no' but i tell people your my next one. then he asks me why i don't have a boyfriend and instead of saying 'i'm waiting for you to ask me out' i say 'i haven't met him yet' even though there he is looking at my naked body. he asks me if i'll be around and i say yes. that's practically going steady isn't it? in gay sex terms at least. i ended up being quite the whore for the rest of the evening. at one point i was the center of a gang bang, well, it could have been. i had one guy fucking me and two guys watching jerking off their dicks and it felt like they were lining up to fuck me. if i had more then 1 condom with me at that point i would have started wrapping them up. i watched boris fool around with 2 guys but didn't join in. blatantly sucked a cock in front of a throng of people. finished the night fucking some cute queeny thing to shreds. oh i was nasty. kept pushing his shoulders up against the wall shoving his head down. we were in a stall and actually forced the door out the wrong way at one point during our session. we had to sort of shimmy out when we were done because i couldn't get the door to swing back in. when i got out i forced the door back into it's proper position. i felt so butch. 10:39 AM (2) comments

Saturday, November 13, 2004 gay sex is filling my every thought, i'm obessed. the doctor was right, it seems, i drank lots of water and flushed out my system. pornography is healthy. and in my email i get this: Call out Gouranga be happy!!! Gouranga Gouranga Gouranga .... That which brings the highest happiness!! if it's spam it's the weirdest spam i've ever recieved, what are they selling? and to further quote bif naked, if your healthy pornography is healthy. 1:28 PM (0) comments

Thursday, November 11, 2004 gay sex, it seems, will continue to elude me. since being treated on saturday my symptoms have not gone away. today, i woke up and directly went to the doctor. as there was no discharge when he looked at me he thinks i'm wakala. today being novemeber 11th they were getting no results and so don't know what happened with my test results yet. i'm supposed to drink lots of water and go back on saturday if i still have symptoms. bah. 1:28 PM (4) comments

Tuesday, November 09, 2004 my gay sex sabbatical continues. i begin to realize it's also more of an addiction then i admit to myself. i've always admitted to being addicted but my behaviour the last few days, the temptation to go out and have sex, is stronger then ever. i'm not about to but that little voice in my head (the one that prevents me from quitting smoking) was trying to convince me i could go out and just not let anyone suck my cock. i'm all over manhunter. i love the whole premise, women going out and finding men to fuck. these girls have great taste as well, this guy is unfucking believably hot, to me anyway. many of the other guys are equally attractive. kudos ladies. 3:06 PM (2) comments

Sunday, November 07, 2004 why do i love straight porn so? perhaps because you just don't see grins like the one on that boy in gay porn. 10:10 PM (3) comments

Saturday, November 06, 2004 gay sex horror stories (or further confessions of a gay sex junkie). the dose has reared it's ugly head again. this must be some sort of record for me though, it's been almost (ya i'm stretching) a year since i had it last. i think i can even narrow it down to who gave it to me. that fat bastard i let fuck me because i wanted to get off and get out of the bathhouse. he had a runny nose and i remember thinking 'i'm going to catch a cold'. i have no reason to believe it's him other then the runny nose, though i also have a runny nose as well as a runny penis. on an upside (really?) i went to the website for the clinic and discovered they are no longer using swabs to detect gonorreah but now they use a urine test. i hate that freaking swab in my dick. ah the joys of gay sex. 10:15 AM (2) comments

Thursday, November 04, 2004 went out for unadulterated gay sex this afternoon. woke up early (before noon) and was going to just jerk off but chose the bathhouse instead. got there around 1:30 and there was action to be had. first guy i take interest in is the first guy in my room. tall, well built and nice cock. has a deep voice and uses it like a porn star telling me how well i'm sucking his cock. i make my ass accessible and he starts playing with it, very nice. tells me how much he'd like to fuck me. i don't need to be told twice and wrap him up. he asks me to sit on him and i enjoy. he comments on my hard on, which wasn't really present for foreplay and how i must really like getting fucked. all and all i'm getting pretty excited when he cums. i hope because it was quick he's going to be ready for more. unfortunately he lets me play with his dick for awhile and then starts telling me to have a nice day. clean up, stroll and notice a dark hairy young guy sitting in a corner. walk by him a second time just to make sure he's as hot as i think he is. yummy. head to my room and he follows. uncut, thick but not too long. i suck, he plays with my ass and i wonder why i'm so lucky today. i don't even wait for a signal, i just reach for the condom. fits in nicely and fucks like a little hairy monkey! pulls out and cums. then in accent i can't pick out (but heavy) he says 'sorry too quick, too good' and he runs out. after that i play around with a few different cocks but nothing to substantial. an older guy forces his way into my room and i think hey chief why not. a small cock but very hard. eats my ass up a storm. i wrap him up and he also starts fucking nice and quick like. has me on my back but sort of off to an angle. hitting me just right and i cum. he pulls out, starts jerking on his cock and next thing i know i see the shot coming right for my face but hardly believe it. right into my eye. he apologizes profusely, i want to rewind and see all of the cumshot. 8:28 PM (0) comments

Wednesday, November 03, 2004 was jerking off today when steven called and asked if i wanted to come over. seemed like more fun then pulling out the dildo so i did. get there and he starts talking about porn so i take him to rent some dvds. i quickly pick some out but he seems hung up on finding ones with double penatration scenes. fine. he wants me to go and ask at the front desk if they have any. i tell him to do it himself and laugh. i hear him asking and i also hear the guy not understanding a word he says. we get back to his place and start watching our choices. he grants me permission to smoke in his bathroom. it seems now with steven i have to initiate everything, which i guess is fine but you got to understand i want to skip right to the fucking, just like in the dvd porn. i ride his cock with my back to him and i can feel him looking around me to see the porn. ya well i'm watching it too. end up on my back on the sofa which seems to be the perfect position, for both of us. he gives me some good hard fucking and we both cum at the same time. i make exit quickly. came home, slept, woke up and pulled out the dildo to watch the dvds again. i've cum twice a day for the last 4 days. i'm bound to crash soon. 2:12 AM (3) comments

Monday, November 01, 2004 went out for some halloweenie last night to the bathhouse. gays and sex everywhere. it just reaked of it. crowded and what always seems to happen when it's busy busy did, guys seem to be in a shoe trying on frenzy. i think i went through the preliminaries with 5 guys in the same number of minutes. a short, muscular, compact bald guy comes in, shuts the door and asks if i have any coke. another kept asking me 'you like this?' and though i did i tired quickly of telling him so. i took a mandatory time out. ran into a friend who told me i should have been there when it was busy. bah. it had slowed down and i was on the prowl. there was a huge lumbering young bear, defined and all hairy, wouldn't look at me sideways. see him cruising with a guy who looks surprisingly like me and can't figure out why i can't get his attention. a cute shorter guy comes in and sucks on my dick. looks like he has a nice sturdy cock but i can't get at it. i get bored of head and get him out politely. friend comes in and offers me some ketamine. nice. turns out cocksucker is in the room across from mine so we begin a jerk off show for each other. he comes back into my room and asks if i'd like him to fuck my ass. i grab his hard cock and say yes. not long by any stretch but a nice shape. we wrap him up and get him in me. seems that's it though. no motion what so ever. quickly he pulls out and cums on me. at least i'm warmed up now. so i notice this latino guy. weird hair that is certainly not a halloween costume. short on the back and sides and then a mess of curls that are shaped like a v on top of his head. i'm distracted by the hair and don't notice he has a fine body. asks me if i want to play and i almost say no based on the hair. another one who goes right to sucking my cock. though he keeps his towel on i begin to note his fine form. i get fed up with having my cock sucked and move to his. he takes his towel off. delicious. long, thick, uncut and it points off to the side dramatically. i start sucking on his cock and he starts playing with my asshole. he asks if i have condoms and i grab one. he pokes me in places i don't think i've ever felt before. he has a weird motion that seems to go with his hair. slides his cock in all the way and then does this little sideways dance. i'm not even sure what it was but it felt great. he has me on my back and he's standing up fucking my ass. i grab his ass, he gives me the little dance again and i cum all over my own face. very nice. in the clean up process i get to see the bear's cock and i wish i had forced myself on him. 3:28 PM (0) comments