Tuesday, June 28, 2005 gay sex extravaganzay continues... i apologize in advance for my sexual exploits and the disarray in which they are presented. sticking with friday evening, i stumble upon the big dicked guy getting his cock sucked. at first i just watch, then i start playing with myself working up to playing with my ass as well. i note a large pipe behind me and sort of get all marilyn monroe on it. clearly i now have the attention of burly big dick and i decide to move towards him. he pulls his dick out the other guys mouth and starts rubbing me. mutual cock sucking and rubbing and we are jammed in a crowd of guys. he turns me around and starts rubbing my ass with his dick. also, it becomes clear to me, he thinks he can fuck me bareback. i can't keep track of all the hands on me at this point, i'm not comfortable with the possibilty of him fucking me raw and someone says out loud 'i'd like to cum on that ass'. i grab him burly and pull him out of the crowd. instead of taking him to a room i take him to the first open space i find. wrap him up and get him in me. a few guys are watching and i'm vocal as ever. i can feel myself getting close to cumming and want to ease back. before i know it he pulls out, takes off the condom and announces he's drunk. fine fine but get me off. not in the cards though. he gone and i still have my shorts around my ankles. totally caught off gaurd. one of the audience steps up, which i guess was the real reason i didn't pull my shorts up and says to me 'i want to eat your ass'. i've said it before and i'll say it again, i think it's vile and disgusting, no matter how clean i am but nothing turns me on more. i look him in the eye, smile and bend over. the man is actually slurping my just fucked ass. i'm hard as a rock again now just thinking about it. a shower is in order. i hap upon the beginnings of sex between what turns out to be 3 guys. 1 of them already in a cubicle (1 hiding behind him) trying to entice a blonde boy with dreads into the cubicle. guy in the room has a big dick, i stop and don't get dirty looks so start playing with his big cock. he dosen't look at me at all but at dread boy, mumbles something to the guy hiding inside. dread boy is behind me now, playing with my ass a bit. big dick tries to circumvent me or something to get at dread boy but he's whispering in my ear 'do you like to fuck?' while stroking my ass. turned my head and smiled, he pulls me away. i know there's some broohah about this going on as we leave but give two shits. their upset i'm taking him away from them, but really he's taking me away them. bla bla bla go fuck someone else. we get our own cubicle and i get to feel his dick for the first time. he's a short guy but with a big dick. uncut, gets wider in the middle, bends down a bit, all around a bit of an odd cock but hey i did say it was big. once we were in the stall he was eating my ass out nasty! i thought to myself this can only be trouble and i was right but he did allow me to put a condom on him after his first failed attempt at barebacking me. the yelps people heard emanating from me during his fuck session. the boy either knew what he was doing or had no clue. at one point i swore he had ripped me a new hole. i had taken it from behind for a quite a bit before i turned around, leaned back against the wall and was able to prop myself up for some perverted missionary, to both our delights. there was also a point, from behind again where i perched myself on the little ledge and squated down on his cock. which became this weird fucking where he would bring his dick totally out and slowly back in. i was enjoying it so much, i'm sorry my explanation dosen't really do it justice, suffice it to say it seemed awkward but i loved it. i figured it couldn't go on forever, that he couldn't be enjoying it as much as i was and so shifted positions to which i recieved a dissappointed noise, but there was no turning back. i wanted my legs in the air so dragged him out into an open area where there was a table. i just picked up my clothes and carried them, he had to take the time to hike up his pants. first off i let him fuck me from behind again before wriggling out and flipping myself over. an evil grin came upon his face and he fucked me vigorously. he pulled out and flopped himself down into a chair, exhaustion i think but i could clearly see myself sitting on his dick and did so. it didn't take long and i was gushing cum all over him. he quickly tossed off an amazing load, of the clearest looking sperm i've ever seen. home for the shower. 12:51 PM (1) comments

Saturday, June 25, 2005 crazy gay sex last night! went to the theater and it was busy. i got fussy and decided only big dicks were going to fuck me. i played with the small ones but moved on. the big dicks also had a time restraint, if they weren't after my ass fast enough i was onto the next one. i got a total of 7 different cocks inside of me, and it should be interesting to note the largest one was also the dullest one but we'll get to that. first guy i played with was aggressive in his cruising of me. to the point of stalking. i had been standing watching a small scene and not really noticed him next to me. when i left though he tried to stop me and followed me when i didn't. i end up in the opposite end of the place and lo and behold whose right there? latin, shorter then me and just the tightest looking ass ever. i play with him now, hey chief why not? as soon as he realizes i'm into it he starts leading me to another space. practically pulling me along, kind of a turn on i must say. we duck into what is usually an empty dark room, and it is but we've been followed, was quite obvious what we were up to. in the dark we got down to business quickly. his business however seemed to be trying to give me a hickey. not kosher especially so early in the evening. dick isn't even hard in these initials steps though i'm hard as a rock and don't seem to care. when he does get hard it is at least 'rock hard' but not large. he jerks on both of our dicks together and then says give me a second. not sure what he's doing but it turns out he's pulling out tissues. why? check my dick, coated in cum, and my leg and what's this? as i pull up my shorts i find they have quite a pool in them. fack. my first shower of the evening and i haven't been there 20 minutes. it was probably while showering i formulated my whole big dick or move on plan. stake myself out at a glory hole and quickly chew through 3 cocks. none of them worthy enough to stick it in my love canal. i head to a seperate area and note what i considered to be a hot guy about to get his dick sucked. young, beefy, muscle and some facial hair. grrrr. figured he wasn't interested in me but as i made my way toward the two of them he offered me his dick instead of the guy it was originally intended for. i latched on! fat and hard though maybe not as long as i was considering for the evening. i didn't care, he fucked my face nicely. dissapointed cocksucker offers him poppers. actually says to him 'enjoy' but i have a nose and i know they are not fresh poppers. dissapointed now also tries to grab at the cock, i put it all in and snicker to myself. this drives big boy crazy and he fucks my throat like i'm not able to do very often. i start gagging loudly on his cock but keep shoving it in there. i hear appreciation of my cock sucking technique from the audience as well he's been quite vocal all along. there was a time restraint though, i didn't feel ass play coming on in a timely fashion so moved on. i do get evil with him again though, coming up... from him i get messed up with this blonde looks like a ski instructor guy, turns out with a eastern european accent. almost like a freaking porn i think. we start out alone in a corner which shortly turns into a group cluster fuck and us trapped. our play is 'nice' and he dosen't seem to get hard. i move us into a position where i can cruise the crowd formed around us, literally 3 guys deep in any direction. i give up on this guy but after i pull my pants up i realize i can't get out. he takes my hand and leads me out. after getting out of the crowd he dosen't let go of my hand. i go in a seperate direction and our hands part. before i know it there he is again taking my hand with a plan to lead me somewhere. gosh i'm easily misled, i follow him. his feet are his huge, his hands are big, i figure his dick gets hard maybe it's big too. alone in a cubicle he does get hard but not a big dick. that's okay i've fallen for his ass. end up giving him little kisses down there. finger him and try to get him into a position where i could fuck him (he was much taller then me) but alas it didn't happen. are parting was sweet and tender, with me going back to down and dirty. now i know i got my ass fucked right after leaving him but for the life of me i don't remember a thing. and i also know on my way to shower another guy showed interest and i stopped to play with him. as soon as his finger found out my ass was lubed he tried to fuck me raw. i got him wrapped and in me but he came real quick. shower. an overly attractive latino cruises me a bit. we end up in another corner but another guy gets in before me and starts playing with latin's dick. he grabs for mine and i make it available. content to play with his expansive chest. when the first guy tries to suck my dick i manouver it away from him. latin clears him out and focuses on me. i get the first feel of his cock. it's dark, i don't know but i'm guessing nine inches and practically just as thick. i shoot a load out of my ass at the touch of it. it's interesting to note his dick was huge because i played with it quite a bit before realizing it was also pierced. as soon as i discovered that i was on my knees and playing with his piercing. after a bit i stand up and he forcibly turns me around to start forcing himself on my ass. i get a little woozy thinking about it. he dosen't seem to care that he's not covered and i wonder in my head 'do i ask him to take out the piercing?', i don't. i wrap him up and then prepare myself for what i hope will be the fuck of my life. i was disappointed in some ways. it seemed to me once he got his dick in there it just stayed there but the rest of him was all over me. he had one hand up against the wall above me the other running all over me. he's muttering 'beautiful fucking things' in my ear and even taking bites at my neck and back. i'm arching onto his dick but not getting the motion i desire. i note he has poppers in the hand against the wall, all of a sudden they come down, he does them and dosen't offer me any!?! i think fuck this and get his dick out of me. he has me pinned against the wall though and shoves himself back in. i think okay but still with the no pounding of my ass. he's gotten wise to me now and literally has me pinned, i'm trying to get away but it's not possible. just as i'm thinking in my head 'i may have to say something' which would not have been kosher he lets me squirm away. i scoot off barely pulling up my shorts. still more to come on last night, and tonight the same agenda. 9:23 PM (1) comments

Friday, June 24, 2005 steve hooper for years i have jerked off watching this guy pound it to some chick. occasionally i've seen solo photo shoots of him and wondered if there were solo videos that went along with these pictures. i even dared to dream there might be gay porn out there that he had done (matt bixel did). the problem is, straight male porn stars are not really stars per se are they? what i mean is, even though i could see steve do the deed his actual name was hard to discover. eventually i was able to narrow it down. then was able to find out that steve hooper operated his own website! at first i was hesitant. i have joined one other straight male performer site and was dissappointed with the content. with said ummentioned site (ah check the archives) the content was not original and the one solo was clothed. clothed?!? from the tour i figured this wouldn't be the case, two videos up there nailed it for me, steve hooper's sweet pink ass winking at me and another of a girl giving him the finger. the site is amazing! so yes there's a webcam and sure i haven't seen him on yet, only been logged in for 4 hours but there's archived footage of past webcam sessions. which are bit odd to watch, you see steve hooper chatting but aren't privy to what's being typed on the screen. in the chat he seems very affable. mind you he could just dribble and i'd be turned on. also he's very aware he a gay male audience and is not uncomfortable with this at all. in his profile he lists his sexuality as 'sexual'. the chats all end with steve hooper doing the wank. oddly he's quiet for that. i wouldn't mind hearing that accent get a little filthy on his own. and in all honesty, getting back to jerking off being a waste, i look at him pull his cock and think wouldn't that be better if i did it for you with my asshole. what an amazing cock! sign me up for the dildo cast of steve hooper please. i'll take his and cliff rhodes's dildo for a little double penatration from the stars. i was shocked at just how much video content steve hooper has available on his website. too much for me to go through it all in one sitting. i checked out quite a few of the solo videos but wanted to get right to the hardcore. also interesting to note he has a link to some gay porn for us boys but i didn't check it out, guess i just wanted him. the first straight (steve and some chick) video was liking hitting the motherlode. if happen to find yourself inside it's in the archives listed as 'steve and dawn'. the picture was of him fucking her doggy style with his hand seeemingly spreading his ass cheek open for me. i didn't even make it to the end of the video. she eats his ass like a real trooper, fingers too but it was the ass eating that made me lose it. steve's interaction with the camera while fucking her was also a big turn on for me. i'm not sure if this was filmed specifically for the site but it's seems very personal. i noted also he has a video of himself shaving which was a fan request. you got to love an obliging porn star. i'm making out a list of 'requests' and checking it twice. look for it sir! 2:40 PM (2) comments

Thursday, June 23, 2005 unprecedented gay sex! i was with a friend last night after bridge recounting the tale of sunday night and the serbian guy who finished off with 'a girl can dream'. friend said 'total turn off' and i agreed even going so far as to say i'd remember the next time i saw him. headed out last night, full moon i think, and went directly to bathhouse and started looking for business. place was busy but not alot of movement, everyone sort of stuck to the porno room. not interested. sucked a dick through a glory hole. i had been watching two guys play with each other's dicks through the hole and was real hot on one of them, the other one, oddly enough the bigger dick, was the one who put his dick through. nice but not real getting the hardness i like in my cock. a guy came in my room who had walked by and showed interest enough times. i figure if your jittery like that you can be fun. had a nice cock, not really more then average in length but torpedo shaped and quite wide at the base. a nice foreskin too. mutual cock play and then i went to suck on him and he said 'can we just play with our dicks a bit' and i replied quite honestly 'ya but...' thinking ya but what's the point. he left. lo and behold the serb walks by. sunday and wednesday night it seems, which i can say nothing against as i'm there too. he dosen't stop and i wonder if i really am going to say no if he approaches. turns out i don't and we get right down to it. i waste no time getting his dick in my ass. we take a couple breaks in between fuck sessions but it's all good. in the back of my head though is the 'girl' bit. fortunately i cum and then wank him off. he's a tasty fucker i tell you. after chat goes fine. turns out he dosen't get fucked that often which i say is odd because i don't fuck that often. numbers were even exchanged. he offered to give me his and then i thought i better give him mine, i'll likely never call but if he wants that option who knows what could happen down the road? i didn't even know lindsay i had a new track out. what kind of fan am i? 5:55 PM (0) comments

Wednesday, June 22, 2005 edited sex. so ya, the guy at the bathhouse on sunday night, big dick and we took turns banging each other. of course i was piggy bottom but he wanted more. i came the last time he was fucking me. hence it being the last time. afterwards he sorta went on about how great the sex was and how long it had been since. bla bla bla. i asked if his accent was austrian but it turned out to be serb, which he seemed somewhat 'ashamed' of. i told him i was gypsy (oh i am at heart) to distract from his serbian heritage issues. tries to get me hard again, i tell him i'm done and he says to me 'a girl can hope' and everything is ruined for me. not that i'll say no to his cock some other time, but i'll try to deter talk. last night a friend is over when i get a call around midnight from the russian, he just says 'i want to fuck'. within half an hour i had gotten friend out and by 1 the russian was here. paid for him to get a cab thinking we'd have to get down and in it so he could be up for work today. gets here and turns out he's now unemployed. which translates into sex until the sun comes up. i wasn't allowing hitting or spitting and this was respected. still nasty fucking. plan was he was going to be here again this evening but he backed out an hour ago. 2:43 AM (3) comments

Monday, June 20, 2005 good old fashioned gay sex. last night i went off to the theater which was yet again more like a morgue. a friend who was there called it 'lonely'. a younger, what some may deem 'hot' guy followed me around. i allowed a little play to start just to see what his cock was like. short but thick and hard. i liked it and the idea of possibly having it in my ass. he was playing with my ass and allowed myself to be turned around so he could rub his member against my ass. he announced 'we need lube' while i thought 'and condom'. he began talking to himself looking for lube. he found it and actually thought he was going to get in without a condom. there was some rubbing and play before i myself procurred a condom. at the sight of the condom he pulled up his pants. i stood there for a bit with my pants down around my ankles shocked that he ran from a condom. a gentleman in the corner had been watching the whole thing and i said to him 'guess i'm not worth a condom'. imagine! stupid fuckers. i wondered why i was wandering around there. tops there were 10 guys and of those 10 only one really did anything for me and with him i'm sure i would have been the top. bah. i hightailed it to the bathhouse. which was actually quite hopping. an attractive wiry boy caught my eye and i his. in no time we were in my room sucking nasties. 1:14 PM (0) comments

what we're going to do here is go back, way back, back into time (okay just thursday night). so geek boy from the internet came over again. oh he makes me ooodles of horny. watching him remove his dork wear i sat and jerked off. no words being exchanged between us. mutual cock sucking and ass fucking. i don't remember this from before but there was also some spitting. not as intense as the russian's spit brigade but still he was defintely out and out spitting on me. i was not spitting back. again it seems i take the intiative to get my ass fucked. if only i knew, i would just put the condom on him when he walks in the door. he was a lot more aggressive in his fucking this time. he started in on slapping my ass and hard. i actually yelped out from one of them and thought that would be that. he started grabbing my love handles and trying to stretch them. biting my nipples and my neck. it was around this time i thought 'hey we're not kissing' because as i recall there was quite a bit of tongue on tongue last time. i managed to get myself into an unawkward position, lying on my stomach. a few more slaps and then all of a sudden out of nowhere it seemed to me he whacked me in the head. i squirmed around the best i could and punched him in the chest. the hitting stopped. trying to choke me began. quickly after that he came. i tried for a little small talk afterwards, it wasn't there. felt like i had been geek boy's punching bag. in fact friday and saturday i was a little concerned about the whole event. i like aggression but that blow to my head hurt. i don't necessarily want sex to 'hurt'. 12:54 PM (0) comments

Saturday, June 18, 2005 well, gay sex and yet... check out the track pictures from the new timo maas album of the same name. the lyrics make me think of my initial sex experiences sans digital photography. and in a continuation of a thought. i walked away from steven and his computer to watch porn, hopefully to get poked a bit too. i got the poking but not without some prodding. then i went to check on the computer (well we had messaged a top as well) and both the top and bottom responded. however both declined once they say pictures of steven. the bottom was also disappointed that i would not be involved (was going to leave if they hooked up). stupid bottom, steven has between 9 and 10 inches of hard cock, what else could you want? i ended up disembarking. got home for a little porn before bridge (it must have been wednesday!). ended up connecting with steven via the internet again, he was going to stop by my place for a little more booty. however, as is classic with him, the timeframe that he was going to come by in came and went. the new dildo, which i have now officially named franklin, and i had a swimmingly good time without the arrival of steven. last night, well last night can sit a little bit more can't it? 4:40 AM (1) comments

Thursday, June 16, 2005 non-stop gay sex antics, or well almost. this morning i woke up early, had coffee which has been more like an every other day occurence and played some online bridge (which i've also cut down on). steven came online, said hi and without waiting for a reply asked if i wanted a threesome. asked him when, he said thirty minutes or less. i said make it thirty and asked where. "he's here so here" ah, ya right, well i'm here come you can come here but of course it is two against one. i don't think i made it in thirty minutes even taking a cab (5 blocks). as soon as i got there i thought i had made a mistake. the guy was not attractive, except that he did have a hard cock, and steven was a little flighty. i could leave still but was horny. i took charge of their dicks and quickly steven was fucking me. i was sucking on the other one and eventually steven passed him a condom. his cock wasn't as long as steven's but still a nice sturdy girth. a solid albeit quick fuck. when he came steven tried to jerk himself off. after what seemed like long enough (i mean hell we're getting back to masturbating as opposed to having actual sex here) i went to the bathroom, cleaned up, and slowly dressed. when steven gave up the other guy dressed as well. he beat me out the door and i lingered to feel out a little more fucking. it was there. i offered up a fresh porn and even brandished a bottle of poppers. one step further: i pulled out my lube. steven had ky ... "it was all i could afford" wherein i explained the economics of lubricant. i slipped off to his computer and signed myself in for some cruising, may as well see i thought. unfortunately this appealed to steven way to much. we ended up glued to the computer. sent a message to one guy, a top and refused interest in what i thought was a very unattractive bottom. oh his name had muscle in it but that meant nothing to me. steven became obessed with him. i went to the bathroom for a cigeratte. i come out to find steven has sent him a message, with the guy thinking it is from me. not cool as far as i'm concerned. i'm actually referred to as 'uptight'. 1:46 AM (0) comments

Wednesday, June 15, 2005 gay sex monday night. at the bathhouse of course. which you could have shot a cannon through. still, there were some warm bodies. my ass worshipper was there, i was undressing in my room he said 'nice ass' and asked if i wanted it licked. well of course i do. edge of the bed legs in the air and he mows down. he's not afraid to get right in there and i'm not afraid to show my appreciation vocally. he did the flippy single with his hands and i'm on all fours taking his tongue up my ass. because the last time we played was a bit of a flop (with the dildo) i wasn't actually expecting any fucking and thought this would be just a warm up. he proved me wrong however. putting a condom on and fucking me solidly. however i wasn't able to last long as i needed to urinate. out of nowhere i've started drinking beer again, bah. as we depart he says the line that wins me over every time 'you get more beautiful everytime i see you'. next is this guy who looks like a hot corey feldman. starts by telling me i'm hot. ya ya. then asks for a cigeratte. fine, fine. as we smoke a little play begins too. lots of chat, clearly he's drunk. tells me i'm clearly older then he is, which although true, is not necessarily recommened chat. i don't clarify. starts calling me boy, which normally i'm quite fond of, in this instance it irks me a bit. conversation takes a decided turn for the weird when he starts mentioning having had sex with his brother when he was younger. i vaguely remember playing with him before and some sort of incest/brother scenario coming up. i extricate myself from the situation at this point, i also seem to recall the sex being less then good. unfortunately he continues to haunt me. i check out. next day i have a crazy masturbation session hitting myself in the face with great gobs of cum. you heard me right gobs, which is odd cause usually i shoot big like that it's only one gob. bla bla bla. 5:17 PM (0) comments

Tuesday, June 14, 2005 gay sex overdose continues... so while i am still showering he moves into the steam room but flashes me a big smile before disappearing into the mists. it's well after 4am at this point, i've taken a fist, i should be going home but i follow him in. i instantly go for his dick and through the steam i can see an even bigger grin. i go down on him. his dick is perfect. long, thick and uncut but most important of all rock hard. a few guys straggle in, i grab him and pull him out of there without saying a word. we towel off and he follows me to my room. a little mutual cocksucking and then he plants himself between my legs. i open the condom and pass it to him. he lifts my legs (!!!) and slides in. he has the exuberance of youth while he fucks me and i end up cumming. it was dark in the room and either he didn't realize (which it turns out to be) or didn't care. i end up riding on top of him for awhile, relishing it all the while. he asks me to lay on my side and fucks me nasty. nasty like i want to take him home and squire him away in my bedroom. he cums and then is polite enough to ask if i want to cum. i told him i did already. he introduces himself as tj. we hold each other for a bit and have some delightful small talk. we end up leaving at the same time, which seems more the coincidental to me. he walks out first and unfortunately i had locked my key in my room and had to go back up to get it. what would have happened had we been out on the street together i know not. as he left the staff member checking us out said 'yummmmy' and i said 'you just don't know'. and that was my friday night, takes me till tuesday to spit it all out, crazy. saturday i swore i was not having sex. still i made it to the theater, got fucked senseless by the latin guy with the really fat cock. afterwards he told me his knees were weak. sunday again i said no sex, and stuck to it. last night, well that will be another post now won't it? 11:24 AM (0) comments

Sunday, June 12, 2005 extreme gay sex continued... so we both jerk off for what seems like too long for me. come in the room or don't but this is detracting. i don't know, i do enjoy jerking off as much as the next guy and with someone else is fine but i'd much rather be getting the dick in my ass. so anyway, somehow, he managed to get me to come out into the hall and play with him. and i'm of course thinking 'i've got a room, we're standing in front of it, what are we waiting for?. mind you, at the same time i'm also quite enamoured with this hunk of man. he was clearly drunk, and it turns out his dick was also lubricated. eventually i gave up on playing in the open and went back into the room. he didn't come in right away. i decided it was over then, i didn't want to keep playing jerk off for everyone to watch and if he wasn't going to come in, bah. just as i was about to get up to go out and shower he came in and said 'fuck him'. apparently he was waiting for someone, which piqued my interest thinking of a threesome (not knowing of course if this was the case) but he closed the door behind him as he came in. more lube, more stroking and some good old fashioned princeton rub. which lead to my ass getting fucked. which you would think would make me happy. his fucking style lacked somewhat. first off, getting my legs in the proper position was a hassle. i'm on my back, preferabbly your holding my legs up for me, it's your dick in my ass but i will hold them up myself however he wasn't even letting my ankles rise. i would work my legs through his arms and up but it was quite a bit of manouvering. then it would repeat. his motion was practically non-existent. bla bla bla i could go on. he started fingering my hole after i had wriggled out for what i deemed the last time. i encouraged. letting him know more then one finger was okay. even more then two. all of a sudden he's got fingers from both hands in there and pulling. not at all pleasureable. i take control of his fist, showing him what i had been shown as the right way. even after that i had to get him to put the thumb in as well. eventually i got the whole thing in, after some twisting and sniffing. again, he didn't really do much once he was in. i grabbed his elbow at one point. he pulled out, slowly thankfully, or i backed off. either way it became clear after that we were done. i did let him fuck again briefly. as we were leaving the room i grabbed his ass a bit and he said 'that was something we didn't explore' but i didn't want to. showering, for what i considered the walk home, there was this beautiful boy who i'm pretty sure i've played with before. likely 23 or 24 but has that perpetual 19 look about him. a good 4 inches taller then me (making him 6'4 or 6'3 lol), dirty blonde and big soft dick with fat foreskin. and again i have to pause, jerk off and return to keyboard... 11:07 PM (2) comments

Saturday, June 11, 2005 gay sex void thursday evening. hammered away at myself with the dildo and came. then around midnight i was feeling frisky again and went to the bathhouse. was there for almost 3 hours and was totally sexless. then this evening. gay sex unabated. as soon as i opened my door for business i got a customer. walked in and shut the door before i even had a chance to decide if i was interested, though once he was in i figured i may as well find out what his dick was like. through the towel it didn't seem like much, in removing the towel i discovered he was some silky shear stretchy under garment. very slippery on his very hard cock. chunky but not long, still the hardness was sufficient for me. a foreskin that wouldn't go back at all it seemed to me. some sucking and such. he tells me he wants to cum and then fuck me. okay. i don't think he went soft a bit after cumming. in no time he's in my ass. strikes some odd poses in the mirror while he fucks me. cums a second time and i'm on my way. shower and a cigeratte in a common area. a naked hairy chap, both nipples pierced, sits down next to me and asks how i am, i tell him 'pretty good' and he makes a nervous laugh. he dosen't make a move so i start playing with my dick, he with his. he then rearranges himself so i can play with his dick and stroke his beautiful hairy chest. i even make a noise which he questions and i tell him i love his chest, from this he tells me what a beautiful body i have (yes there are freaks out there that find my body attractive - the delicious tan helps). then he tells me we've played before and i say 'no i'd remember', asks if i have a room and off we go. it's when we get back to the room i realize yes i have played with him before and he's a top. he's big in everywhere except his dick, but that's okay. we get down to it, and i must point out, he holds my legs up nicely for me. of course there's also some bouncing down on him. all around good time. somehow we work around to his fingers, well and it turns out his fist. mind you just to the knuckles. feels amazing, like more actually and must have felt good for him as he came. then asked if i was going to and i said no. he chuckled and said 'you have a long night ahead of you'. so true, and gay sex to be had! after the shower a terribly short but attractive guy cruises me and inevitable shows me his dick. which must be because it gets him a lot of business, very nice. i pull away from him and say 'come to my room' and he replies 'oh yeah?' kind of surprised. as soon as we get to the room it turns out we're fighting for bottom. he's a small guy, silky smooth and so i do fuck him, and none to gentle which elicts all mention of noise out of him. tries to get me to let him sit on it but i keep plugging away. eventually he eases up and i pound him senseless. i want some to however and get him wrapped and in me. i grab the poppers, offer him some but he declines, take my own and then in no time they seem to have affected him. he pulls out and flops onto his back. i give him a 30 second rest period and then move him out. as we're walking out i note a naked guy that i had seen clothed coming in and thought was hot hot hot, even more so naked. he did have leather straps on both his arms that certainly added to that. a nice v chest too. he smiles at me and i stop in my tracks. we both do a stroke for each other right there in the hall. i take the few steps back to my room and go in. not right away but shortly thereafter he appears in the doorway. now we are both out and out jerking our cocks off (i'm getting hard thinking about it now) ah right, more gay sex installments to cum... 5:07 AM (0) comments

Thursday, June 09, 2005 gay sex, dildos and poppers... so after cancelling the date for tonight i get home circa 11pm and get a call at the same time. i know who it is and almost didn't answer, but i was a mite bit horny. can i come over, talk and fuck? fine fine. then all of a sudden 'love' comes up. so he gets here and we have 'big discussion'. first it bothers him that i have a boyfriend who recently died and that i'm having sex. i tell him how i deal with my emotions is really none of his business. this begets: i don't want you having sex after i die. i begin to think 'how do i get him out of here'. next, and this is the big one he tells me: you need to finish high school. i only vaguely recall mentioning that i never graduated. he tells me if i'm going to be his boyfriend i have to finish, "i have 2 university degrees, we have to be on the same level". now i do tell him i've had enough. whether or not i've graduated really shouldn't matter, if your going to love me it's because of who i am, not who i could be. he brings out his cock. aaargh. i'm a sucker for sex. in no time he has his dick in my ass. the spitting starts up. i'm not adverse to it but does it have to be constant? when he asks if i don't like it i tell him to ease up on it, he tells me to shut up. rub rub rub he cums. we have a rinse. i try to get him to fist my hole, he keeps leaving the thumb out. i get the tasty new dildo, i lay out the ground rules, go easy, no twisting. he tells me i sound like a german i'm so particular. it's my ass, and that thing is freaking big. instead of the twisty i get him holding the dildo at the very end so it goes wobbly. starts lubing up the other end and i tell him you want to keep that end dry so you have something to hold onto, not realizing until he hops on, he's after the other end. fine. poor thing can barely handle it. goes back to fucking me with it and then fucking me with his cock. by this time i'm revvvved up, i give him direct orders, including my favourite 'fuck me like you hate me'. which did not elict the proper response and he spit on me yet again when i told him fucked like a little girl. pulls out and cums a second time. after another rinse he tells me he has to wake up early and leaves. chatted a bit with my friend fisty mcfister who i haven't heard from in awhile. invited me over, however, it's about my ass now. play with the dildos trying to get myself off. doesn't happen. i'll try again in the morning i'm sure. 3:18 AM (2) comments

Wednesday, June 08, 2005 prelude to gay sex? the russian has been up and down as bad as a yo-yo, boyfriends, not boyfriends. finally today i said i wasn't interested in having a boyfriend but i'd be quite happy with a fuck buddy. a date we had for this evening has been pushed to friday and he's expressed an interest in having steven over too. why stop there i figure? the last guy i did from online was fun, going to send him an email and see if he wants to come over too! today i ran into a friend who was in puerto vallarta when carlos died. it was good to get more information and in english. he said what i had been thinking, the coca was a big factor. i had wondered if nearing the end he was still getting it and he was. i remember thinking at the time that he went into the hospital a break from the coca might be good for him, alas... 3:50 PM (0) comments

Monday, June 06, 2005 further outpourings from leaning over. curly blonde, 21, baby fat still intact tells me he has a nine inch cock. there is absolutely no way i'm going to get him to call me boy, i'd just laugh. i ask him whether he's top or bottom and he replies he's 'verse'. so am i, so am i. i'm getting fucked though. it may have been nine inches when it was hard but it never really got fully hard, still, enough to appreciate, rather it in my arse though. scat and snuff are the big ones? "raised to equate shit with death, and the eroticizing of shit is an eroticizing of death". i've said it before i get turned off by the smell of shit however at the same time "fuck the shit out of him/me" is a phrase that i find intriguing. there have been times where i have literally fucked the shit out of guy and been utterly disgusted, to the point of exiting but i can also think of times where i've been highly turned on by it. the same in reverse with myself. friday comes to mind as being the first time in a long time i've actually had shit fucked out of me. though not turned on by it in this instance i also paid it little mind. in fact i'd go so far as to say i'm not opposed to having the shit fucked out of me. i don't think that is necessarily getting turned on by death. i also didn't subscribe to an english teacher's view that people who wore all black were obessed with death. i wore all black at the time and well before the 'trenchcoat mafia' i'll have you know. black suited the pearls better ... ala 'lovecats - the cure'. 1:31 AM (0) comments

Sunday, June 05, 2005 nasty nasty gay sex. right, so he's a bit of a spitter but i'm sure that's been mentioned before. as far as spitting goes he's quite good at it, more of a spray then the horking gobs that come out of my mouth when he tells me to spit on him. i like it but at the same time i don't. my first instinct is to wipe it off, last night i think perhaps he picked up on this and was licking it off my face right after spitting on me. i guess i don't like the feel of it after it's sat there, i dunno. friday night his hot piss in the tepid shower was 'hot', poor thing couldn't held the temperature i like for my showers or was planning in advance and knew if the shower was hot i wouldn't feel his piss. last night however, when he pissed on me while i was sitting on the toliet not as exciting. well yes, sure it was, especially when he told me to take some in my mouth and give it to him but in the back of my head i'm thinking of clean up. afterwards i told him it 'freaked' me out and he kept asking me what i meant. i told him i liked it, it wasn't that i didn't like it but somehow couldn't explain that the thought of cleaning it up took me out of the moment. he started mopping it up with toliet paper which turned me off to the idea even more. mental note: intense cleaning in the bathroom today. in a roundabout way (oh how i love high school again) he asked me to be his boyfriend. i referred to it as 'seeing each other' but he kept saying boyfriend. sussed me out to and knew i felt 'love'. you will remember (regulars anyway) how i called him 'my new boyfriend' last year the first time i had sex with him. apparently, he dosen't remember the other times we've had sex! i'll have to go through the archives and see just how many times it was, i told him more then 3 times but it might have been 3 times. how does one know when one is in love? 6:39 AM (0) comments

Saturday, June 04, 2005 gay sex in overdrive. yesterday i was going to go to the bathhouse. however, i felt my ass cleaning was quite up to snuff for any fucking. returned some dvds and on my way back home i decided slipping into the theater would be okay, a little cock sucking wasn't going to hurt. a not neccesarily unattractive man with what was a beautiful cock was the first to recieve my oral pleasures. i cried a little inside sucking on it knowing i wasn't going to put it in my ass. after that i seemed less interested in staying. when i decided i was going to leave (likely at midnight if you can believe it) i spied me the russian, heading into a bathroom of course. i lingered a bit. next i saw russian was following after the beautiful cock i had sucked on, i of course followed and stood outside of the cubicle they were in listening in on what was going on. i told myself i would leave when it sounded like they were done but all of a sudden the door opened and i was caught. i stood still and waited for them to pass. the russian started playing with my dick and then pulled me into the cubicle. right away he was slamming that thing of his down my throat. before i knew it he had me bent over and was fucking me. then he wanted me to fuck him. then he came in my mouth, a huge load too, i saved it for a bit planning to return it to him but then he asked me if i lived close. oh happy day! i spit out his cum and said i lived only minutes away. and off we went. more nasty fucking. i was not clean but it seemed to bother not one bit. when i say not clean it wasn't like i was messy, i mean i had started the cleaning process. a few flecks. he was fucking me and smoking a cigeratte at the same time, when it landed on me it brought a slight halt to acitivities. i had noticed quite a few scars in a sort of pattern on his side and feared more burns or worse. after a clean up we chatted each other up a bit. he repeated the 'why does someone so cute go to that place?' and 'why don't you have a boyfriend?'. i thought telling him my boyfriend had died would be a damper, though i did. then to change the topic i asked about his scars, from a bomb blast in israel, again another potential downer. we recovered. he heard someone in the hall and wanted to open the door. i said no (knowing how unattractive my only neighbour at this point is) and he kept insisting it would be fun. then he asked me to call someone over for a threesome, i seemed hesititant but only because i had already checked to see who was online and no one was. he took this as me being offended and said he was quite happy with only me. at this point steven came online, snap snap snap and he was over in ten minutes. thoughts of double penatration going through all three of our minds. did i forget to mention i had left a dildo out before leaving (not expecting company) and it had been part of our play? took some work getting both in but at one point he was fucking me and i was fucking myself. geez i realize i'm glossing over a lot of what we did with each other and jumping right to steven. the spitting, the pissing and the beatings. i'm going to get ready for work, the russian is coming over when i'm done but has to leave to go to bed by 11, i promise to fill in the blanks then.... 4:10 PM (0) comments

Friday, June 03, 2005 it's official, i'm an uncle! 1:23 PM (2) comments

Thursday, June 02, 2005 gay sex first right? i was out to the theater sunday night, expecting it to be busier then it was. didn't much matter, the bearded guy i fucked last week was there and we went at it again, with vigour. started out with me sucking his cock out in the open. last week i don't think i went anywhere near his cock to be able to say that it was humongous. long, fat and uncut, can i ask for more? as the crowd (what little there was) formed he asked me to follow him. off to the exact same cubicle as last week (must be his pattern) and just as i shut the door i remembered why we stopped playing last week, smell of shit got to me. never mind his preoccupation with whether i had cum or not. i fucked him first, still not necessarily 'fresh' down there but then hey i am bit anal about keeping my own ass clean (ha ha i said anal). then i got to squeeze my arse around his cock. my only wish was that we could have had a better position, me being taller then him and standing whilst getting fucked not necessarily conducive to a good screw. though it worked for him as he came. i was eager to fuck his ass again and continued on with some 'after-play' which i had every intention of just being an interlude to me getting him vunerable again. it worked. i was a little rougher this time. there was a bench in the cubicle and i forced him down on it so i could fuck him a little sillier. then started the 'are you close' line of questioning. i was not. i pulled out and sprawled myself out on the bench. some mutual masturbation ended up with him cumming on my chest (and apparently, lord i hope it was him, on the wall). then he settled down to getting me off. tried showing him how i like to be jerked off but he did seem to want to learn. it mattered not, he started talking downright nasty. asked me if i wanted to 'breed' his hole (oh and i did want to) and also referred to me as pretty boy a number of times. not sure which of those did it but i came. propping myself something wet slid on to my leg (this is where i really hope it was his cum dripping off the wall). we ended up 'awkwardly' entangled and i'll say 'cooing'. eventually he said he had to pee. after we dressed i offered him a cigeratte just as he noticed i had them and asked me for one. wanted to know if i'd stick around and smoke it with him. sure sure. in the bathroom i did a quick clean up as he peed, and peed, and just wouldn't stop. i said 'that's some bladder you have' and thought of the piss videos i've watched recently. i'll try. we smoked and 'sort of' openly cuddled. i mean it was the theater, we weren't actually cuddling but it was damn near close. he asked me why it took me so long to cum and i asked him in return why he was so quick. think we both wanted to connect again but neither of us said anything tangible. i just don't bring that up anymore. too many times it's ended in failure of some form or another. hell if nothing else i'll see him there again. now i had intended more blogging but i'm exhausted. check out the treasure island media blog and prepare for the next installment... 2:59 AM (0) comments