Sunday, November 20, 2005 last week out of the blue both steven and evan (the russian) both chatted me up at the same time. i haven't heard from either of them in awhile and was surprised they both contacted me at the same time. both of them have been seeing someone, i'm assuming it's not each other, and were busy giving me their woes. for steven it was monogamy and how he dosen't think he's built that way. for evan it was the exact opposite and toss in drugs to boot. by the end of the respective conversations i had told steven he should call me when he's ready to fuck and evan that he should have threesome with me and his boyfriend, boyfriend supplies the coke. evan told me he was going to break up with him so we could have sex again (ooops no) and wanted to make a date for last night. i told him saturday night i would be where i always am and if he wanted to come to the theater to meet that was fine. not really a date that way is it? calls started on thursday from evan "can we change it to friday?". on friday he called to find out what time on saturday. saturday he called me at work. it's not supposed to be a date, what doesn't he understand? honestly, if your date suggests meeting at a porno theater what kind of a date is it? i ask you. so i got there shortly after midnight. lots of potential. i end up with an asian guy dressed all thug. alone he sucks on my dick and i'm hard in a flash, i swear to you in under a minute this boy had pulled out a condom and wrapped me up. at the time i was amazed at his tenacity. clearly someone had told him you have to trick me into being top. i fucked him good, or at least how i would have liked it. i found it kinda hot that we were both fully clothed (him especially) but this lead to me over heating. i pulled out and took off the condom. he asked me if i had cum and i didn't say no but made a noise that sounded like 'yes'. shame on me. evan came into the shower while i was cleaning. full of small talk. i smoke a joint with him but this dosen't really shut him up either. i pull him into an open dark area and force him against a wall, he says "no not here" but i don't listen. he's not really shy. i'm hard again, i'm ready to go but tease a bit first. i knew we had a crowd but hadn't absorbed it yet. i looked up to see the asian guy i'm secretly in love with. the one who won't come back to my place because it isn't "safe". i lose interest in evan. harsh i know. evan reaches out for my man, not even realizing i'm more interested in doing it with him again. perhaps because we haven't talked enough for me to know his name. bah. anyway, he's not interested in evan and moves away from his reach. my hard on is completely gone and i remove myself from the area. ditching evan in the process. i wandered around a bit. ended up in a cubicle with some guy. right away he went for my dick. right here i should admit to the fact that i was a mite bit high, and not just grass. for some reason i started to think it was evan i was in the cubicle with. the guy did have an accent and a similar outline in the dark. i wasn't sure really whether it was him or not, which is odd because i had clearly seen the guy before going in. whether it was my confusion, the drugs or the thought that i was playing with evan again i went soft. this guy said he wanted my piss. in his mouth! at that point i 'knew' it was evan (watersports being his calling card) and did try to piss with his lips just lightly kissing the end of my dick. the sensation was odd, not bad, odd. at the time i remember having this flash of mugwomp jism. i felt like i was giving this guy something, some essence or some such thing. i mean literally it felt like something was leaving me. bla bla bla. when i couldn't piss or get hard this guy did lose interest and my head reeled when it turned out not to be evan. i lurked in the shadows for awhile, looking to see if evan was there, trying to compose myself and of course checking out the possibilties. i decided to leave. i thought i would check a dark room to see if evan was still there, someone followed me in and we were the only ones there. i wasn't sure but i thought it was the latin guy with the fat cock. last time we played it was in the same area and i sucked his cock for what seemed like an eternity and didn't get fucked. as soon as i felt my cock in his hand i knew it was him. when i started to play with his cock he started grabbing my ass. in no time he had my face pushed up against a wall. he lubed my ass and i was afraid he was going to try and fuck me bare. i went to hand him a condom when i heard him rip one open. to be double sure i grabbed his cock before it went in. i tried at first to be quiet. i couldn't. his cock is like a coke can. i swear my prostate must somehow be connected to my vocal cords. what seemed like a couple came into the room. again i tried to stiffle my cries but unsucessfully. they came over and tried playing with my dick. i had big boy shove me into a wall again. i was close to cumming when he did. for about 30 seconds he had the speed going i liked and then it was over. he kept saying thank you. i was thinking 'why don't we fuck more often'. as he pulled up his pants and left i was still standing there with my dick in my hand. a guy came up to me, i wouldn't be able to pick him in a line up now but he was fit and his dick was hard plus sticking out of his pants. i grabbed it and checked for sturdiness. grabbed a condom, wrapped and had him in me pronto. i jerked on myself like a madman planning on cumming asap. he was faster and there i was with my dick in my hand no dick in my ass again. i hiked up pants and prepared again to leave. a charming black man and i somehow made our way into a cubicle. when i grabbed his dick an audible moan escaped me. with no dilly dallying we had him inside of me. this time i had to fight off cumming because, well i don't know, because i was enjoying it. nice big dick, me already loosened up. tasty. when i did cum i think it was enormous, it felt like it anyway. he was smart and didn't slow down for my cumshot. i bit onto my t-shirt and let him go. really that is some of the most delicious fucking, right after a cumshot. pain and pleasure mixed to a point where i'm not sure which is which. however when his dick slipped out, or was forced out by my ass muscles he wasn't getting back in. no way no how. slept wonderfully. 2:31 PM (1) comments

Thursday, November 17, 2005 naughty bits to follow. i start the evening with wednesday night bridge, where i learned that card rule #1 a card layed is a card played dosen't apply if you REALLY played the wrong card. twice last night my partner played the wrong card but because it was on the table nothing could be done. in fact it happened to myself and i made a rather loud joke about it. when our opps did it however, because "i really played the wrong card" my partner was forced to pick up his card and let opp play a different card. so not only was it a card played but the next in line had played a card as well. ya well, i don't have many places to voice my concerns over this precedent and i've chosen here. sorry. pretend we were playing strip poker, it makes it sexier. afterwards i slipped into the theater for a little wednesday night action. i first got inside and thought "i'm the only one here". quickly i discovered though the numbers were small i was not the only one. made my way to a large cock poking out through a glory hole and in no time was choking on it. i excused myself, something about said cock, even though it was large, didn't do it for me. in a rather public spot i suck on this guy's cock i've played with before. shorter guy but a muscle pig. always seems to be wearing those nylon (is that the right material?) track pants, swish swish when walking. he has fucked me before but not for awhile. i believe he's also the gentleman who once coaxed me out of a cubicle into the open while sucking on his cock. it is a lovely cock, fat, long, uncut and tasty. last night was no exception and here we are in public to begin with. when a crowd forms (3 guys which certainly was a crowd for last night) he walked away. okay. i end up sitting in front of a glory hole minutes later when whose cock appears? i get him hard again and then he comes around to motion me to follow him, i do. when we are alone in a cubicle i feel comfortable enough to let loose my dick and stroke it while i suck on him. he's dropped his pants to his knees and i notice an aroma now that i didn't smell before. pungent but i can't figure out what it is. my first thought was i had sweat up a storm at bridge and it was me. then as i took more of his dick in i knew it was him, it seemed to be his shirt. i couldn't place it though. it wasn't his cock though and that was the important part, i kept sucking. he grabbed my chin and the top of my head at one point to bang me hard. why do i love that so? i gag. he says something about my ass but i can't make out what and then motions for me to stand up. instantly i want to turn around, spread my cheeks and show him my pink but stopping into the theater had been unplanned and i was not ready to get fucked. i stood there for a minute stroking my dick while he stroked my ass before i latched back onto his cock. then he said "i have to take a piss" and i took this as an *out* and dressed. he didn't pull up his pants right away but said something i couldn't make out. i was well out of there, in the bathroom rinsing my mouth when i finally deciphered what he had said and everything clicked together like an episode of lost. he had said "not your mouth?"! the smell on his shirt had been old piss. he wears those nylon pants because they dry faster. my head reeled. "fool" i thought, now he thinks i'm turned off by piss when the truth is cock sucking makes you hard of hearing. mind you when i was formulating all this in my head i deduced that i would end up covered in piss...wet clothes i mean. i wanted to go back and tell him i would be his piss mop but at the same time that would mean taking off my clothes. as always with me and piss: planning takes the spontaneity out of the equation and hence makes it less appealing. i file it away though, i've played with him before and will again, perhaps another time i will be his piss mop. i think i just like saying "piss mop". from the beginning of my short evening a gentleman had been cruising me but had not been aggressive enough i guess. finally now he showed me his dick, lovely and the two of us went into a cubicle for me to suck on him. again a very nice dick and while i was sucking on it i cursed myself for not be ready to fuck. when he started grabbing at my ass i weighed out the possibilties of a quick fuck in my head. i didn't have lube or even a condom on me but perhaps he did. would i say "it might not be clean" beforehand or risk it. he stood me up and began fingering my ass with earnest as we both jerked on our dicks. before i knew it he was cumming. he said to me "i came on someone else's face" and i didn't understand what he meant. he motioned at the glory hole, guess someone had been watching us and caught more then eyeful. as we left the cubicle he went next door and i could hear him apologizing as i walked away. sorry? let that be a lesson, peep and you may get a surprise! 10:41 AM (0) comments

Wednesday, November 16, 2005 yesterday i went to the bathhouse for a little afternoon delite. ha. i got a locker and headed for the showers/steam right away. a hairy brute of a man caught my eye and i his. he showered next to me, which i mean, honestly, does he think i'm going to get it going on in the shower area. a boy like me has to have some standards, dosen't he? he followed me into the steam room. i played with my dick just a little bit and was rock hard. he sat down next to me, put his hand on my leg and asked "do you have a room?". when i said no he suggested going to a dark area. we did. almost as soon as we were *alone* i decided i had made a wrong call here. his dick was hairy too. he sucked on my cock and then asked me to suck on his, i tried, well not really. i guess i more or less pretended to suck his dick. i stood up and tried to extricate myself, he held me in place and said "don't you want to cum?". i swear to all this happened well under 5 minutes and he's thinking i want to cum? not knowing what to say i said "not really" and forced myself out. after that i had very little interaction. i decided to head home and go to a different bathhouse later in the day. unfortunately i got home and played with myself a bit, then a bit more, then i pulled out the dildos. then i didn't go to the bathhouse. 11:54 AM (1) comments

Saturday, November 12, 2005 yesterday was my first day of not smoking nicotine! this zyban stuff really seems to work. it wasn't until late in the day that i even bothered to put the patch on, it was after a shower. the rest of the day i only occasionally thought of lighting up and then i realized it was just habit. much hope for today and the next... i went to the theater last night, as your are supposed to reward yourself, and had some fun. instantly i saw this cute guy who when he walked past me grabbed my ass, there seemed to be an electric shock. he popped into a dark room, me, i turned around and went the other way. what was i thinking? at the time i think i was thinking "what are you doing?". i ended up having a very large cock force fed to me. despite it's size, with a little perservance i was able to take of all it at once, but only for moments at a time. the gentleman didn't seem to mind this at all and would wait for the next chance to ram it all down my throat. there were a few hands grabbing at my cock and i kept pushing them away. finally i grabbed a hand and said out loud "i'm trying to suck this cock". of course then someone tried to grab the cock i was sucking on during a breather. i took his hand off and put the cock back in me. at the point where i thought i would have to stop altogether the kind sir started fingering my ass. nicely. not this jabbing of his finger into the hole but more just rubbing the outside of it. i could think of nothing more then him ramming my ass the way he had done my throat but i also sensed condoms might be an issue, i don't know why i thought that, but still... i went back to suck his cocking, tears streaming down my face, nose running, and saliva coating my chin. being the trooper that i am i tried one last time to take all of it for as long as i could, visualizing him shooting his load down my throat. instead i threw up. keeping it all in my mouth i quickly excused myself and headed for the nearest sink. the applause i thought i should be hearing as walking away didn't happen. when i get to the sink i had to wait for some idiot to wash his hands. after that i was spoiled, for a few months i've seen this big muscle guy there and always wanted to play with him. he approached me last night and we started off with some mutual cock rubbing. he took his cock out and instantly i was disappointed, hoping for much more. it did grow somewhat but not enough. he pushed me down to suck on it and i did oblige (he's real hot) but i wasn't into it. furthermore, he had a hairy dick. i mean come on, work with what you got. the first chance i got i pulled myself away. sucked on a long bendy cock and was able to take most of it but i guess the guy didn't like my technique cause he didn't stay long. rubbed with another guy who focused on my ass. his cock seemed odd inside his pants though. i'm not sure exactly how to define 'odd'. it seemed like it went directly down, which could have been because it was trapped or it might have been because that's what it did. either way he got scared off by another guy. this cock, that cock and still i didn't get fucked...what kind of reward is that? 2:01 PM (2) comments

Tuesday, November 08, 2005 gay sex again! after weeks (it seems) of opting out of sex or only mildly pleasing sex i decided yesterday was get up and go day. in the afternoon i decided to go and hang out at a local bathhouse, just getting a locker. i played a little here and there (mostly in the steam room) all the while thinking once darkness fell i would head over to another bathhouse and get a room. once i got me a room sex certainly was looking up. the guy across the hall from me had a sling and was set up in it with balls on a rope hanging out his ass. i wasn't sure whether having that across the hall from me would be good or bad news. it mattered not, the little asian top i've played with quite a bit found me and in no time was fucking my ass like there's no tommorow. my only complaint with him is a compulsion to see me cum, which means while he's fucking me he's also playing with my dick trying to get it hard and off. which i guess isn't really a complaint, i just wish he'd leave it alone and fuck me senseless, which he certainly does, i could just do without him playing with my dick. after having wished it a number of times playing with him i finally got him to try and fist my ass. i'm not sure how much got in, and he tried a couple times but each time it would get so far and not only would i have to stop but i would have to pull him out, and pronto like. he was rock hard during the process and we would pause from the fisting and switch back to him fucking me. eventually he wanted to take a break to clean up. it seemed for every ounce of lube he used trying to get in me two ounces would come out. he said he wanted to come back and said "it was amazing, he'd never done anything like that before". if only i knew, i would have tried a long time ago. after an extended shower and swim i thought i ran into him in the sauna. turns out though it was a different asian guy all together, possibly japanesse, impossibly cute. he followed me out of the sauna and in the hall i saw just how cute (and young) he was. i kept thinking "hello kitty". he came into my room and we started with kissing and nuzzling. it seemed innocent enough but what i really wanted was to fuck his ass, it was just so smooth and perfect. i wanted nothing more then to put his face in the pillow and plow him. i did get him face down and dove my face into his ass. it was a delight. i procurred a condom and before i could put it on he said "let's go to my room" and i said "why". to me it seemed crazy, i had condom, lube and poppers what more could he need? he said he would be more comfortable, i acquiesced and he told me to give him one minute. okay, sure. i waited a good minute and then headed to his room. just as i was coming up on it the door opened. i went in and removed my towel, he did not. we began kissing and nuzzling again and i noted 2 bottles of poppers on his table. so he wasn't as sweet and innocent as he looked. we got to a point where i was ready to fuck him again when he asked me if i wanted poppers or party favours. i said "i was okay with the poppers" meaning "what's the favours" but he thought it meant i wanted poppers and i said "no not at the moment" knowing if i used popppers now i wouldn't be able to get hard enough to fuck him. this stopping brought us back to step one and it was more kissing, this time however lube was introduced to our play, as well he began fingering my ass. it all seemed quite tasty when he whispered "do you want some blow", what what? yes of course. delightful coke it was too, when i saw the amount he was putting on the key i thought to myself "you better double that if you intend to get me high" but it was almost instantly apparent this was potent dope. he put a condom on me and so began my miserable attempt to fuck his ass. for the life of me i could not get inside of him and keep it there. that sweet little ass i had been licking before just didn't seem to want to fit my dick. at one point he said "your dick is too big for my ass" and i said "nah" but thought yes. whenever i did manage to get inside of him it was only for a few seconds before he backed off of it. it was during a back off period where we were kissing and his finger was right up my ass where i came and quite a bit. i managed to cover his arm and part of the bed with my cum. i apologized feeling kinda bad and he said he wanted me back for round two, i said okay knowing full well i was leaving. 7:01 PM (2) comments

Sunday, November 06, 2005 it's not like i'm not having sex, i am, but it seems mediocre at best. i went out 'sexing' in the afternoon this week, seems like forever since i pulled a nooner. pickins were slim at best, a tight bodied guy caught my eye and quickly came into my room. it seemed like he sucked on my dick forever without me getting hard. the 'magic' began when i started playing with his dick. once i was hard his goal seemed to be getting me into his ass as fast as he could. after fucking him for a little bit he excused himself for a bathroom break telling me "he really had to go" and "i'll be back". it's not like he had much options. when he came back we went right back to me fucking him. it was pleasant enough and i could easily have cum but i kept thinking i wanted some ass fucking for myself. it got to a point where i had to make a decision, he made it for me, begging off for another bathroom break. this time no mention of a return engagement. i quickly scanned the halls, realized i wasn't going to get what i wanted and left, quietly cursing myself for not shoothing my load when i had the chance. 12:13 AM (0) comments