Tuesday, December 13, 2005 i've been having computer woes (which secretly we all know i love). a couple days ago i clicked on explorer and got a "operation failed to intialize" bla bla bla crap. okay so i figure i'll google up .... right no google. my internet was fine, other programs operating fine, just no browser. which was fine, i'd get that firefox i've heard so much about it. oh right, no way to download it. uninstalling explorer wasn't possible and while trying to do that messenger told me i had a new email. now sure, the email was likely junk (yes it was) but that was all i needed. i had the tasty windows disc in the computer and was rebooting in less then a minute. it's been awhile since i formatted and i'm pretty much prepared for that eventuality. i keep everything on that drive in one folder, move it over to another drive and begin format. there's something about format i love, something like confession for a catholic i think. in record time i was surfing again. and then bam, explorer gone again. i've formatted again. this time however i have gone so far as to install firefox and acquaint myself with it. i am so behind the times. saturday night i went to the theater in what seems like the first time in forever (two weeks i think). it was busy, real busy, much more traffic then i expected. i fooled around with a tramp i've seen there before but not knowingly played with. all of a sudden there were cocks a popping everywhere. i got a little overwhelmed, and for the most part i wasn't interested in having any one in the scene fuck my ass, so i stole away. i sucked a cock through a glory hole that i swear i've sucked througha a glory hole before. it gets wider at the base and points directly to the floor, for me to take it up the ass would likely involve some fancy manouvering, considering i'm at a glory hole. i think the guy senses that i'm either going to try and fuck myself on his dick through the glory hole or that i'm going to come around to the otherside. his cock disappears, i don't run but try to quickly get to the other side to at least see what cock it is i want. i have a vision of it being one of the nastiest looking guys there (and me still doing him on the spot) but i get back there and see nothing. my ass aches. i get in a 'frantic' mode: "why isn't any one fucking my ass?" which is not good for business. then, like a dark knight, i see the chap who reminded me of carlos. the one i thought sang "we belong together" to me. the one who again i'm happy just sniffing. we dance around a little and end up in a room alone. kissing and cock stroking. cock sucking and ass stroking. wrapping him up and throwing it in me. the fucking is great. we had only taken our shirts off, our pants were just down around our ankles. i tried removing my boot (so i could take my pants off) while he was fucking me but he slipped out. i was able to get the boot off, not the pant leg off before he was slamming into me again. while he fucked me i decided having just one leg free was enough and slipped out of the pant with my right leg and got the boot back on. now all of a sudden i could spread my legs and lower my ass to him better. i don't think it was very long at all before i came. came and knew that i was done. i tried to let him keep going but he kept grabbing at my dick. one of the times it made me jump and his cock was no longer in me. i wasn't letting him back in either. hindsight tells me i should have said "i'll have a shower and we can start again" instead we kissed a bit more and then departed. saw jacob slader in little big league. where is his dildo? 12:25 PM (0) comments

Monday, December 05, 2005 i did have sex saturday night, good sex even but what happened last night was more exciting. lord, i smoked nicotine. to be fair i didn't know i was going to be smoking nicotine. i'm in a situation with friends and one of said friends' trick. trick is so hot it hurts. blonde, baby faced thug. we're smoking a joint, i pass to trick and he strokes my hand before taking the joint. oodles of excitement run through me. this boy is hot hot white hot. conversation and light flirting continues. he rolls a hash joint and we seem to be engaged in a conversation of which i remember none. the two friends were also conversing but didn't include him and only occasionally tried to pull me in. trick lights the joint but dosen't take his eyes off me. it's a little disconcerting, i think he's passing the joint to me but he sends it off the other way. the joint makes it's way to me, i take a pull, hold, and a second one. tastes good. he says "how's that?" quite smirky. i exhale and say it's quite nice. as the high hits me i say "oh that's nicotine" and he chuckles. i mean of course it is, i watched him roll the damn thing. after the joint he offers me a cigeratte. knowing i should refuse i accept. those eyes, i'm telling you those eyes, i would have done anything. he was sent straight from some evil place to tempt and beguile me. i swear on it! he leaves the room. shortly thereafter friend he fucks with leaves and comes back announcing trick is high. tells me to go comfort him. huh? now and let's be clear, friend is friend and nothing more, nor ever will be. i feel like now he's offering up his trick to me. i'm uncomfortable. i beg off saying the cigeratte has made me sick. which isn't totally untrue. i beat off a nasty streak when i get home. 10:53 AM (1) comments

Friday, December 02, 2005 i think i've buggered myself good. yesterday i woke up and told myself to go to the bathhouse. i also told myself to take practically my whole dildo collection with me. i still had my morning coffee regime but made it for the bathhouse at 2. walking in i noticed more then one potential fuckmate but still i got to my room, shut the door, flicked on the telly and started abusing myself. though it had been awhile since i had sex it seemed like longer since i've used a dildo. it was delightful and furthermore it did the trick. basically i warm myself up, get to that point where usually when i'm at home i think "it's time to go to the bathhouse". when i showered there wasn't a guy in the area i wouldn't have had sex with. one in particular just looked like walking sex to me. hairless from top to bottom, muscled, nice tan (though i found his thongy tan line kinda queer) and this massive fat soft cock. in the whirlpool i accidentaly (honestly) brushed against him and had an orgasm. walking back to my room in the hall i see another dream walking towards me, a nice regular physique, hairy chest, salt and pepper hair (but a young guy) and just looked to me like dirty sex. as we got closer he whistled at me, i was stunned but kept walking, i was only steps from my door but by the time i got there he had disappeared. i went out to find him again but someone else found me. i'm bad at age guesses but he was older then me. nice hairy body, not gym body but naturally hot. moustache. i guess i was openly gawking at him when he said "hi" to me. i answered "hello" with a big smile but kept walking. i don't why i'm so *shy*. this time i got to my room and this chap was right behind me. he sat down next to me but the door stayed open. i don't even remember our small talk now, i think he asked for gum but it got to a point where i was going to say 'shove off'. fortunately someone stopped outside the door to gawk and he closed the door. i took my towel off right away and some mutual groping began. he had a thick rubber cock ring on but was soft. i also pegged him for a small dick. i sucked on it for awhile and nothing. we had been playing long enough that i thought he should be hard and i was ready to end it. when he went to suck on my dick i was prepared to stop him but he got in before i could. at this point i pegged him as a small dicked cum slut cock sucker. he stood up and i thought 'phew he's ending this' when he asked "do you like to fuck?" and i answered sort of curtly but to the point "i like to get fucked". all of a sudden everything changed when he replied with a chuckle "well good". when i say everything i mean everything. the knowledge that my trick wants to fuck my ass always turns me on or revs me up. furthermore i thought to myself 'i have my dildos' and for some reason i felt comfortable with the idea of sharing them. he started fingering my ass and his cock started growing. when he ate my ass i was squirming with delight everywhere. it was after this that i noticed there was way more cock then i thought and it still wasn't hard. by the time it was fully erect i must have been oozing from my hole. without an actual ruler we'll never know for sure but it looked liked 10 inches to me. he asked if he could fuck me and i could have jumped on him right then and there. once he got it wrapped we we're doing the doggy. his hand was staying at the base of his cock, then it would get hard enough and his hand would be gone and all of him inside of me. i could visualize a wedding ring. i got fucked on my back as well before he layed down. now keep in mind, i'm hard as a rock the whole time but when i start bouncing on him and he starts grabbing at my dick i'm ready to explode. more then once i pulled his hand away from my dick. at one point i grabbed both his wrists and pinned his arms down over his head. at least that way neither of us could touch my dick. i started stroking myself again and knew this was it. i guess he knew too because at just the right time he said "down my throat". when i slid off his dick i was basically at his mouth and so gave it to him. it felt to me like a came much more then usual but as i didn't get to see it i'll never know. he told me "you taste good", i can't disagree with that either, i do taste good. then he mentioned something about how clean i was and i had another little mini-orgasm. as we both getting ready to depart he told me "that was the quietest fuck ever". at first i thought that was because he's been fucking bottoms that can't handle his massive member like my hungry hole. later i thought about it as odd because usually i'm quite vocal getting fucked. as he left the room he said "i'll be back in 5 minutes to do that again" and i knew i wouldn't be there. today i'm thinking "stupid - you should have waited the 5 minutes". mind you, getting back to the "i've buggered myself good" statement, i do seem to be paying for it today! 1:41 PM (0) comments