Monday, May 29, 2006 ivan andros my new porn boyfriend. it was last year i first got party in the rear and took real notice of him. his scene in this movie is perhaps one of the hottest porn scenes ever, that was until i got passport to paradise last week. in both movies he's verbal as hell, except in passport i can understand what he's saying. not that it isn't hot when i don't understand the language. i've decided he can fuck me in any language he wants. i just want to bite a piece off of him while he does it. i can honestly say that party in the rear is a hot movie, unfortunately ivan's scene is the first in passport to paradise and i haven't yet made it past his scene to check out the rest of the film. i just start melting when he calls me a 'good boy'. 7:33 AM (0) comments

Saturday, May 27, 2006 hot sweaty gay sex. wasn't going go to go out tonight. that itch i can't scratch started up at like 1am. the theater is closest and so as per usual it wins out. almost right away i see this older gentleman, mid-40s perhaps, 5'8 (that height does seem to turn me on), wearing black dress pants, a white shirt and a leather jacket. he already has his dick sticking out his pants and i let out an audible gasp as i near him. i stop a foot past him and he starts to turn and tease me with his cock. it's beautiful. long, thick and covered with foreskin. i drop down and he becomes even more coy with his beauty. eventually he eases it into my mouth and begins to fuck my face. i can't get enough, gagging it all down. i must have made love to that cock for 15 minutes before some guy started getting aggressive with my cock and i had to walk away. not a minute later we bump into each other in front of a booth. i entice him in. once the door shuts my hands are all over him. something about his plainness drives me crazy. he goes down on me, with an occasional brush against my ass and i feel like i could shoot a load down his throat at any moment. the only thing stopping me is the thought of his cock up my ass. i reach down to grab at his dick and he says 'i can't concentrate on two things' and i want to say 'focus on fucking me' but don't. he allows me the pleasure of playing with his cock even though it seemed like he didn't want to. did i forget to mention his accent, scottish i think, which just cranked me up more and made me want him to talk more. he asked my name and volunteered his. told me had had a lot to drink and should maybe take a break. i say 'that's too bad' sounding very disappointed and apparently that perks him up. i rub myself against him like a mad dog. he makes his way to sucking me again, this time i start grabbing the back of his head and giving it to him. he stands up and says something about a breath of fresh air. should i invite him back to my place or is he begging off? confusion and the mad dog in me takes over again rubbing our cock together. then he says 'it's not because you aren't handsome, you are very but i've been drinking'. somehow his finger slips into my ass which sends me off on a cooing session, he gets down there and goes crazy on my ass. his whiskers likely turning me on more then his tongue. again he mentions needing air, it is hot and sweaty, i figure okay, we'll get out of here, chat nonchalant and invite him back. i don't find him again to try but keep myself excited at the possibilty of him. when i finally decide i've lost my chance (i don't seem him again) i decided to head out. coke can cock sees me, realizes i'm leaving and makes a dash for the closest dark room. i suck him off while some other guy watches, where it's dark enough that all he is seeing his shapes. when he finally leaves us alone i stand up and hear friend opening and applying a condom. i lube. i know it's not going to take long, his cock just fits so well and he bangs me off like a pro. at some point another chap comes in and i hear him also put on a condom and i think how presumptious. never the less the thought of it gets me off and fuckee can tell, bangs me even harder and i can tell he's cum. i want to get out fast but all of a sudden the second guy grabs me and says 'hola amigo', practically forcing himself on me but i'm really not interested. i say no and he pushes me against the wall. fuckee says something in spanish that i don't understand but the second guy eased off and i slip out. 3:56 AM (1) comments

Thursday, May 25, 2006 four toes? 2:17 AM (3) comments

Tuesday, May 23, 2006 yesterday i sort of hemmed and hawed all day about going out for sex. the roommate and i decided to go to starbucks early evening and grab a dessert. on the way back he picked up a trick. home alone i decided i would go out. as i was leaving roomie returned and said the bathhouse was hopping. he hemmed and hawed about returning with me. said it was wrong to go on a monday night, this after just coming back from the bathhouse but he said 'that's different - it was work'. i didn't think it was 'hopping' and ended up playing some video games. i got back to my room and decided i would give it 5 minutes before leaving. just at the point when i was ready to give up a very handsome man walked past the door, and then again, and a third time. dark haired, very gq handsome, reminded me a lot of an iranian friend i have. finally he stopped in front of the doorway. he was wearing a tight fitting black shirt and a towel which made me think he might be hairy and ashamed. i checked his feet and figured him for a smaller cock. he seemed hesitant about coming in and i took him for a bottom. he asked what i was up to and then did i want company. i figured i may as well even though at this point i had sort of lost it for him. then he took off his towel. i was so wrong about the cock. even soft i could tell it was going to be a big one. so freaking big. while i started sucking him off he played with my dick a bit and started rubbing my ass. he made his way onto the bed and we swapped blow jobs. then he asked me if i was a top or bottom, i was prepared to say the usual 'i like both' when instead i told him the truth and said mostly bottom. then he preceded to fuck my face, as well as opening my unopened bottle of poppers. i gagged on him a number of times. when i was ready to give up on sucking his cock he would grab me by the back of the head and ram it back in. when it got to the point where i was seeing stars i moved away. he grabbed a condom, i lubed up my ass and took a seat, without poppers. i felt like a virgin again it hurt so much. when i felt i couldn't bounce anymore he got out from under me. i'm not sure what position he wanted to move into but i went straight for my back and he said 'okay'. when he started pounding me and my head started bouncing on the wall he put his hand on the back of my head to protect me and i melted a little. he fed me poppers and we started kissing as well. at some point he slipped out and we switched to doggy style. then he stood up and i moved to the edge of the bed. he spit on his hand and started jerking me off. when i came he stopped jerking me off and went from first gear into third, i grabbed my dick and came again. i turned myself over and he asked if i came, i told him twice. then he grabbed at the condom and asked if i was done. i lifted up my legs and we went at it again. nasty like. again he cupped my head. he collapsed on me and i wanted to lock him up forever. he stood up and asked if i would be around for awhile so we could fuck again. i had no intention of staying but said yes. after showering a short latin muscular impossibly hot guy followed me into the room. started kissing me right after introducing himself. then he forced me face down onto the bed and started eating my ass like he had never eaten. it just wasn't possible for me to get hard again at this moment and i think he took it personal. he told me he was tired and that it was nothing personal but he was going to leave. i was hoping for fat cock to come back. he did walk past the door but didn't stop. i left. 1:38 PM (2) comments

saturday night and i had some utilatarian gay sex. first a friend invited me to a party. seemed like a good oppurtunity to use up the rest of the mdma. i split up what was left with him. at the search into the party they found the baggie, the woman told me i had to throw it away. fine. i ripped open the bag and licked what little was left. she then told me i wouldn't be going in. i waved to my friend, was secretly thankful and headed to the theater. as soon as i got in the chap from last week followed me into a booth. some light kissing and as soon as i discovered he was hard i wrapped a condom on him. he's not got a huge cock, but it's hard and does the poking just right. i was very close to cumming when he did. i grabbed his hand, put it at my ass and jerked myself off. then more kissing. he asked me if i remembered him from last week and i said i did. at the same time i was wondering if he remembered me from years ago but didn't want to get embroiled in a conversation. the whole reason years ago i had had him over to my place was because when he fucked me at the bathhouse then he came and then fucked me again. when i brought him home he came and i expected to get fucked again but he left. there was more kissing, name exchanging and then he asked if i lived close by. oh no i thought. i said i did and made a move to the door. he blocked me and then asked when i would be back. i told him it was a safe bet that i would be back next weekend... 1:30 PM (0) comments

Tuesday, May 16, 2006 more delicious gay sex. went out to a bathhouse early in the evening. there seemed to be enough interesting bodies. in a darkened area a gentleman tried to aggressively suck my cock and i tried aggressively to get away from him. he followed me to my room. my large cock radar must have kicked in and rode out all my other senses because i let him come in. i was also intrigued by the fact that he was very very tanned. i quickly went for his cock to avoid him going after mine. it was at this point that i realized i had hit pay dirt. even soft it was quite large and it took very little effort to flesh it out. it was eight inches long and thick beyond my wildest dreams. when he started playing with my ass i let him suck my cock as well. what started out as casual stroking of my ass ended up with him out and out finger fucking me. i've been fucked by cocks smaller then his fingers so it was quite a delight. it was also quite nice to just sit back and enjoy his hard work. occasionally i grabbed the back of his head and bounced on the back of his throat while he worked my ass. so much fun. he flipped me over and we were heading into actual ass fucking but he persisted in trying to do it without a condom. having enjoyed the frustration he must have been feeling i grabbed a condom and handed it to him but instead he moved back for me to put it on. he took it slow but as he had already worked me over with his finger i wanted to be banged. i flipped over, positioned my legs on his shoulders and started pulling him into as fast as i could. he pulled out, started fingering me again and came. it didn't take long for me to make the calculation that i wasn't going to get better then that this evening and i shot a load out too. when i got home i ended the evening with an email conversation with a chap from an online cruising site. i don't usually go on that long with email tag but it was fun. only because i had already gotten off i guess. near the end he sent me his phone number but i begged off calling him at that point. we left that tentatively we would get together today to take his dog for a walk. 6:59 PM (1) comments

Monday, May 15, 2006 sex with chemicals. friday i was able to get my hands on some mdma. i tried to snort it but it found it too painful so began ingesting little by little. i waited half an hour after the first dose before i tried some more, then waited twenty minutes. in between dosing i fooled around a little. first with a big young guy. nice thick cock and everything seemed to be moving into the right direction...my ass. then he announced he would cum if he fucked me and he didn't want to cum yet, could he come back. i wanted to say fuck me, cum and you can still come back but there were plenty of men at the bathhouse. then two seperate guys who just wanted to suck on my cock. more mdma. then i'm out in the halls and a favourite fuck was there. spanish guy, short, with a thick mess of curls on top of his head. i've played with him a couple times but not for at least a year. i get him back into my room and i'm already rock hard. we take turns sucking each others cock and then sixty nine. he gets between my legs and reaches for a condom. i consider offering him some mdma but then i remember him mentioning how much he dislikes drugs. i also remember how he can fuck forever and self-moisten. he seems to be fucking in slo-mo, i recall he was quite the fucker. i don't mind. i love trying to run my fingers through his hair. kissing him is also tastygood. i turn over and take him doggy style so that i can get a little more pumping action. i'm watching in the mirror and come very close to spilling my load when he pulls out. turns out he did lose his nuts. my disappointment was very clear and he apologized. a few more blow jobs and all the dosing catches up with me. i'm warm. i just want to sleep and so i head home. the walk home seems to invigorate everything. i'm tempted to check out my online possibilties but instead curl up in bed. saturday i decide to check out the theater. one of the few chaps i brought home is there and we end up in a booth. i orchestrate his dick into my ass. when he cums ("oh god i'm going to cum, oh god i'm cumming, i'm cumming") i'm close as well but hold onto it figuring there's more men out there. then nothing grabs me enough. i fooled around a bit with that idiot with a big dick that i brought home a couple weeks ago only to have him cum while i sucked on his cock. while sucking on my cock he begins playing with another chap who had been following me around all night. i was not interested in that group and got myself out. frustrated i went home. in bed by 2am, alone on a saturday night. more compulisve masturbation and i weigh my options for this evening. 1:17 PM (2) comments

Thursday, May 11, 2006 sex? who needs that... i've been going crazy this week with the masturbation. tuesday i wake up after having been at the bathhouse the evening before and begin abusing myself to completion. in the afternoon i start up again, with only a few hours in between. at some point i decide i'm going to grab a dildo and really get myself off, standing up and walking towards where the dildos are i shoot my load, clear across the room. alright, it was only half way across the room, which according to my tape measure was between 4 and 5 feet! after having already blown a load. tuesday night, wednesday morning another quick load. that's 3 in the 24 hour period after the tub. yesterday for lunch another toss. last night i went to sleep fucking a pillow. today i've already blown a load and i'm thinking a bathhouse visit is already in order. 1:11 PM (1) comments

Tuesday, May 09, 2006 mucho gay sex and just a hint of drama. saturday night i went to the bathhouse. i'm going to try and avoid the theater for a little while. right off the bat i was fucking an older hot guy. brush cut gray hair and an overall millitary feel. i'm into him and when i see how small his dick is i figure i'm going to fuck him and he wastes no time sitting down on me. as quickly as he had come he was gone even faster. just up and gone. next off a bearded younger guy. very humpy and unusual for me i just walk into his room. i get a little carried away fucking him. as i'm shoving his face down he cries something about his neck. i let go of him all together but don't stop fucking him. he squirms out from under me and discovers what i knew for a bit, he wasn't clean. i go shower and smoke. i walk past his room and he's back, i ask him 'what's up?' and he tells me he's clean now. great and so i bring him back to my room, there's poppers there after all. though he has a surprise in store for me and takes charge of fucking my ass. very nice, however he doesn't seem to want to fuck me on my back. we take turns fucking each other for quite awhile. then, to me anyway, out of nowhere he leaves. then a black man comes to my door. i snare him in. his dick is long, thick and curved. while he fucks me it feels extra thick i figure because of the curve. he dosen't fuck very fast at all and i pull out the poppers to back up on him like a madman. i guess the booze from earlier and the poppers overwhelmed me. we end up snuggling and i pass out. i wake up to him trying to put his cock back in me. i check for a condom, there isn't one and so i ask him to leave. i go back to sleep and wake up early morning in the bathhouse. yikes. sunday night i had planned another excursion but the hang over got the best of me. monday and nothing was going to stop me from going to a bathhouse. then i start getting calls from ditchpig. i make it clear that i'am going out but that he's welcome to come over first. he takes this as he can come out with me. while here he even mentions a bathhouse as a possible place to go. no way i'm going to the tubs with him though. it matters not as conversation takes a decided turn for the worse. he starts in on some of his idiotic prouncements, about leaving and bla bla bla. i tell him i don't know what to believe from him anymore and that he's making stupid decisions. harsh but at the same time so true. he believes i'm saying because 'we were seeing each other'. it's at this point i think he's saying these things only to see a reaction from me. i ask him to leave. not the reaction he was looking for, he starts saying 'yes maybe i should go' but makes no move to leaving. i get up and say 'what are you waiting for?'. as he's leaving he says 'have a good night' in such a nasty tone i had expected it to be a 'have a good life'. i'am unnecessarily angered now and head for a bar. walking there i think: yes i am saying these things because we were seeing each other, because i care for him. at the same time i think i've had enough, i don't need the hassle anymore. please stop calling. shots of tequilla and beers later i am at the bathhouse. right away a chap snaps on to me. i'm heading out to the patio to smoke a joint and he follows me. he's rubbing my legs before i even have the joint out. he asks if it's okay and i say yes. i offer him the joint but he declines. then starts staring at it while i smoke it. after a bit he asks for a toke. i make sure he has plenty. he starts sucking me off and i say 'i have a room' to which he replies i like it here. fine. i find out he has a huge cock and start trying to fit it into me. mouth of course. someone else comes out on the patio and i don't plan on doing a show so i get up and head to my room. fortunately he follows. more play and when he turns me over to eat my ass i'm in heaven. i figure he's going to try and fuck me raw but i'm prepared. he announces he wants to fuck me and my ass probably cried a little. shortly thereafter he says we will need condoms and lube, i procur them from my knapsack. it takes a bit of effort to get him inside of me and once he is in i start chewing the pillow. then there's a whole him taking him out of me and putting it back in, i always find this frustrating, get in me and fuck me, pulling in and out is not terribly horny for me. before i know it he's cum all over my back. great big lakes of cum. i hope for the possibilty that i might get fucked again but it's clear he's leaving. cleaning up i pick myself up another gentleman. nice cock. unfortunately it's also a hairy cock which isn't much fun for sucking. he starts rubbing my ass with my cock and talking about fucking me, dick in my ass, and some other dirty mumblings. then he says he wants to rub our cocks together. sure, sure i think but really i want you fucking me. he cums rubbing our cocks together. next off this queeny thing is asking if i'm waitng for someone. i say no and he comes into my room. awkward conversation and he says things like 'hot' which i don't particulary find 'hot'. i end up fucking him anyway. pretty nasty like and when i think i might possibly cum fucking him he beats me to the punch spilling his load all over himself. by this time the choices in the bathhouse have thinned out so i get myself quickly off and head home. 12:22 PM (2) comments

Tuesday, May 02, 2006 more gay sex! last night i got a room at the bathhouse. got a little tanked. playing a video game i also observed two guys getting to know each other. the one next to me was tasty, i overheard him say he was in construction and i started paying more attention to what was going on. he was short, likely in his 40s, nicely built and hairy but clipped. gray haired with a buzz cut. humpy. his towel slid down a couple times but he wasn't hard. then he began announcing he was going to steam and gave me a wink. the second guy followed. neither had a locker (me a room) and i could easily have brought them both back to the room but the video game was fun. when i did get back to the room i was hoping to nab humpy alone instead a guy dressed in full leather came in and took advantage of me. it was like a cop uniform and once he came in he snapped sunglasses on to his regular glasses. hot. he started grabbing my dick with his gloved hands and i wanted to say 'the drugs are in my ass'. he started sucking me off but eventually he did find my ass. the leather on my hole was rough. then he started lubing up the glove. i wondered whether it was wise for me to let him finger me with his leather glove but forgot about it quickly. he never really seemed to penatrate and when he said 'does the boy need to take a break' i said yes. then, a chap i've seen at the tubs for years now comes in my room. inside i freaked a little, i've checked him out every time i see him but he never seems interested. perhaps the gym is paying off. he's well into his forties, tight tight tight and hairy. nice cock too. he wants to incorporate lube into the play right away and i'm even happier. i suck him for a bit but then he asks if i like to get fucked. without answering i just get on all fours and he says 'i guess that's a yes', then 'why don't you come over to the edge of the bed'. it feels so good to have dick in me, and dick that knows what it's doing. while he's fucking me he sees me trying to get a peek in the mirror and says 'here you want a better look' and positions himself so i can watch his chest while he fucks me. i bounce on him a bit, then i'm facing the mirror standing up, then i shoot my load. i start munching his ass while he jerks off. he gets frustrated and so we fuck again. i get off again. he leaves. i head home. not a block from the bathhouse a street guy (or at least he looks streety) asks if he can buy a cigeratte off me. i ask him how much he's willing to pay and he says 'what you want'. we're closer and i tell him i want to see his dick. he comes up pulls it out and gives it a couple strokes. hot. i reach for the cigeratte and it's the last one in the pack, he won't take it and tries to take my lit cigeratte 'i can't take a man's last cigeratte' and i say 'you showed me your dick' and still he refuses, i tell him i have another pack at home (actually it's in my other pocket) and he asks if i have anything to drink there while taking the cigeratte. sorry, no, i say. kick myself on the way home thinking i should have a stocked bar. tell the roommate and he says 'you have champagne in the fridge'... fuck 12:44 PM (4) comments